A DAY LIKE A LOST CHILD + I REALISE.... /// 1/19/2010 09:04:00 PM
Today really is A NOT MY DAY.....today was very tired...i wnet to SOOA lesson..totaolly in sleepy mode...was not in good mood this morning..
maybe due to some words ......Am i over senitive or what? i don't know...i only reaslied that i don't like friends comparing different way of birthday celebration....IT MY HEART doing it..i doing and planning sincerely....THAT it matter most? or am i expecting too much ? i don't know.....i am only very tired..maybe due to very late sleep ba..have being sudy till 12++ excluded yesterday ba...Noone know how i feel coz i cant talk it out but i rather i said it here...After SOA lesson ,went to BL meeting.... doesn't know i join is right or wrong. i just hope i would learn some skills out of it..that what i matter most and enjoy with my best buddies=)...wanted to learn mot thing and experience....after that ,i went to cafe 1 to find joelle....and celia...i heard ivy said very angry....i thought is becoz i drop your handphone..i am sry about it..not purposely...that why i went to ask u about it......you said BL...i sign a relief..don't know why i feel so uncomforatable..thought you would said it out..and so i can be your listener...to listen.....now then i realised you won't know how to said.......it doesnt matter now and i only hope u ok..i think i expected too much from a firends i care most.after that i went to find chair,vann suddenly walk away.....my first reaction was vann...wait..what happen.trying to pull her back but i failed.finally she told me...i forgot about my bag. LOL! i told vann to stay there. don't go away .i only want to stay at a fren's side to listen and care.i can be a listener listen to you..even a nod also can. i went back to find joelleand celia to take bag..cozi call ivy..she iddnt listen to my call.. i feel so wrong liao. went back to them. i ask joelle.where is ivy? joelle said vann go ..then ivy also go...at that time i was like so loss.omg how on earth wth happening today?but i so surprised they can sit there nth.i expecting too much on frens.i now reaslied what I DO TREAT A FRENDS.....DO THEY TREST LIKE I DO...so sad...cant said much coz it my fault causing all this due to the past...
Amanda♥