today i feel so emotional...lie on bed and got alot thing in mind..so suddenly...
rewind on alot thing happen..last time...keep on rewind and tear really flow down...dont know why..
i think of all the stupid mistake i make and how i wish time can turn back...haha i know it cant...haha
I wish I could see myself from someone else's point of view.stand at their view and think how they think about me? haha comfirm very bad ler... so random find some thing about Forgive and Forget...
Step 1
Talk
it Out: Most of us claim that we will forgive and forget when we have
been wronged in one way or another. But it is never as easy as it
seems. So if you have been wronged and you are feeling personally
violated from this event then perhaps you need to address the issue
squarely where it lies. Once you have thought through all your problems
with said person or event then you need to sit down and calmly let them
have it! You need to yell, you need to cuss, you need to get every last
thing off your chest so that you can finally say to yourself that you
have said all you need to say on the matter in question.
Step 2
Keep
It to Yourself: After having your rage session the idea will be
squarely back in your frontal lobes and you will suddenly feel the urge
to bring this issue up at otherwise inappropriate times. If this is
your partner, whenever their good friends or relatives are around; out
at dinner; in the car. While these may seem like completely logical
times to berate someone you care about, this attitude is forgetting the
whole deal (forgive and forget) in the first place. Also, brining up an
otherwise private matter in public places with random strangers or with
close friends is a pretty bad idea, if for no other reason than because
no one else knows about it.
Step 3
Yell
at Yourself: While the constant urge may strike you to yell and yell
and blame yea who wronged, it should be remembered that there had to
have been an underlying impetus, a first instinct, a major issue at
play here. So rather than turning it around and dealing with the
incident, why don't you look a little closer at your own involvement in
the event from the get go. Once you have taken responsibility for your
role in the event, then and only then will you be able to forgive. Next
time you are in that same situation, you would do wise to not forget. A random POST TODAY!=)
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
/// 2/23/2010 12:05:00 AM
i think the only way for me not to think is studY...it get hard sometime...i realised..
i will try not to think anymore...
jia you PB0904K for the upcoming test....exams!=)
ALL THE BEST!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
/// 2/18/2010 11:07:00 PM
recently..being having alot stress...
i have alot of thing to do which i didnt do..coz i cant focus and do thing properly..it get worse...
i must give myself a expiry date TMR! i shall be ok and try to take and go.....jia you jia yi!...
no matter what i try...i really hope u girls will understand it..i am sry...
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
/// 2/17/2010 08:15:00 PM
First time such a terrible day for me...went to sch so feeling tired..at the starting ..it was ok...
i was very angry at u ...it was u who didnt tell me the actual day of eating streamboat...u thought i dont want eat...on other hand u keep said i thought i said today..hello? did u said...anyway it over... when i really super angry i shout at ppl that i care...
i dont feel like talkking to u all coz i not in a mood so please dont ask me what happen ....it make me even worse...i just need a friends just beside me...but u all did not..maybe i too fierce...
i am sry if i shout u all..if u all really mind i shouting at u all...all i can said is nth...
went to a carpark staircase and sit at there...burst out in tear... upset but i try to be strong...
when i on the way home,i was thinking of the past.it take such a long time for me to take and go...to forget..now it need time for me to forget..to take and go..i hate ppl who keep said about the past when it over...it will only make me feel worse than before...
didnt u all realise for the past few weeks..i have beem trying to tiliang everyone of them.....
if u do care for me...u all wont be staying SLIENCE during ENW...
am i very fierce? haiz....
for the next few days...it really take time to auto talk to u..coz i am hurt .
Thursday, February 4, 2010
/// 2/04/2010 10:17:00 PM
i really hate my days at home.come home everyone only blame me for this and that and didnt really understand how i feel at all..i so tired...sister shout..brother shout...father and mother shout too...noone console me at all..i am just like a useless person at home.. make me scold until i cry..stupid asshole brother.i cry not becoz i want win coz u keep on shout about the same thing over and over...shout for vulgar.that why i so frustrated by u.
sometime ppl think that i cry in a "show " that dont becoz cry...u win or whatever.this is a way for me to destress..if u dont understnad and that all.
even through in sch, i tend to be very happy person but i really upset about sth.but i will try to be a happy person.if thing doesnt go my way....i shall not force it and shall let it go.=)coz there are still other friends that are there for me..thanks !=)
stress is getting out on me..practical was quite hard but i try my hard to do finish.
My feeling... /// 2/04/2010 12:35:00 AM
Today seem to be a sad day for me...but i hope it will be allright soon.
Human's mindset can be different/similar. but 100% there no ppl that really understand a PERSON 100% FULLY!it get hurt when u two drift off.but i try my way to get u to my path.but it failed.maybe u right.i should have let it go ba.the more i hold,the more hurt i got.i hope we still friends after all.i dont want just a hi and bye friends.i hope u all will able to find me if u all really need help.i know that it get tiring when we keep quarrel.i get tired but i think every friendship do goes by this process.maybe i the cause of all this that led to this.i am sincerely sry about it for not thinking at yours views.i so disappointed when u said that but i really dont know what can i do now.
Even through today it happened sth.but i will find a time to talk to her.to clear our misunderstanding.i suddenly realised i cant understnad a friend as well.i really sry about it.i try my best ot understnad each of them as time goes by.i try to say my view but i got this problem whereby i want to said this but it came out to be so different.that my weakness.my way of talking always get wrong everytime.i hope u girls understand =)everytime thing happened,i tend to be angry at the starting.and while i was alone, i will think back and think at your views.it all coz at that situation,we tend to be strongly in our own views.i am sincerely sry about it.Nomatter what happen..i really do not wish that one day we drift off just like that...i really scared of this.Don't giveup on our friendship!
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
A song that describle NOW! /// 2/02/2010 01:01:00 AM
while i was reading on my horoscope...i found this(1 feb 2010)
(Much of what is happening for you today, Sagittarius, is happening behind the scenes. Although you may feel very strongly about something, try not to act until you get some sort of "sign" because your intuition is likely to be dead on. Be ready to take responsibility for your accomplishments today. Don't play the victim role today, and don't blame others, fate, the universe or whatever for the difficulties you face from time to time. Every problem has a solution, and the solving of problems is the beginning of real success for you.)
i hope it not true.i know i feel it but what can i do?NTH coz i know the more i do ,the more it get worse so maybe just be normal .
i Have been quite stressful this few day but i try to smile no matter what...cant really focus during SOA lesson.Try to do my best for what i do.study jia you jia yi!=)
thing always happen for what i said....it always get misinterpret..and i also misunderstand by other ppl's words..what shall i do now? i glad it solved!=)
Even through i said dont care,but i end up care for them.i shouldn't said i dont care for them coz i still treat them as good like sister even they don;t ..coz i treasure friendship.i shall not said words that i shouldnt do it at all.it all my fault for saying it.
A nice song that i found it quite nice that gOt meaning in it!SURVIVE NOW!=)
Amanda♥