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=) /// 5/29/2010 09:46:00 PM

this weekend nth much also. i went to work at mum there to help coz lack of ppl. erm will be working during weekend until 13june . haha atleast can earn some allowance for myself. i want to buy a new spec. haha!
holiday is coming soon. next week,i want to save money ! haha! holdiay coming and hope to have outing with frens. haha if not i will be rotting at home study? LOL!=) maybe?
i hate my com. lol! so lag . so slow. yet DVD/CD drive spoilt. wanna to try the games disc. end up it didnt detect. aiyo..cant try playing the game.
was thinking if want to change my hairstyle...thinking of rebond my hair? haha! maybe la not sure...

TIRED /// 5/24/2010 10:54:00 AM

super tired now. just want my bed now . aiyo now i having bad lesson. o man. i dont know why suddenly i said cher explanation is very poor. doesnt mean it in that way. just came up of my mouth. aiyo>.< psps. hope everyone would able to live their life happy rather then sad.
life is so unpredictable. it can be up and down without u even notice. it can happen so suddenly. wasnt it?

last sat, i went to JB. JB trip was ok ok . abit bored but overall okok. i didnt talk much either. shouldnt find topic to talk about. i am just like a sotong that day. we went there to eat ba kut teh. o man .it nice. if next time i got a chance to go there. i want go eat again. i love the drink. i dont know what that call. but it got jelly in it! After that, we went to holiday plaza . i brought a tee. haha!After that, we went back to city plaza to shop awhile and went back to custom ler.

emotional now! /// 5/16/2010 10:53:00 PM

lying at the bed and realised how much thing have changed.
i lost the frens i treasure,i care and trust. ppl come and go.

A chat with mummy and sister! /// 5/12/2010 08:56:00 PM

On the way walking home, i suddenly thought of this. Different charactor will have different view and so it result in different understanding of each other. yay it true. i chat with my sister about the life. i always dont understand why something just mend to be like that. for example, why some ppl like to said other ppl bad thing but do that person realised that if u were the person. how would u feel? how would u react if u were the person being say? ya it is unavoidable coz that what life are. i always admire those ppl that should really accept those negative words from other and move on like normal. but i on the way learning . i twice met before this situation and i was the one that heard/see it. it true it hurt . i dont blame them but i glad i knew it at last rather being acting nth happen. i am the person who will glad if u said the truth to me . jie told me that the life. the life is very "xian shi".
It true that everyone have different view and sometime it might end up misunderstanding. why cant ppl just try to understand each other view but instead u just support on yours view. everyone view is differ so that no right or wrong. maybe it the nature of human reaction?
while i was eating dinner, mummy asked me you want to go poly? i said i want go poly. but i know father wont want me go poly coz he always shouted " after studying finish ite , go work la". i told mummy this and found out it not father wont let me go poly. It is because father got one period of time see me keep come back home late. he dont like coz he feel am i go ite for study or play? but i told mother that recently i have come back home early. mother told me if father wont let u go poly, then u go work first.ya maybe.i always have a feeling that father hate/dislike me coz he always shouted at me for noting and shouted at me whe he in badmood. i dont understand why ppl just should not stand at each other ppl's view and think.
i have being trying my best to study to score well so to go poly. i study not for anyone but for myself. i want a diploma .i want to study to learn more. furthermore, i realised everytime ppl ask me what your job for furture? my answer is dont know. i dont know what my actual interest are.
i am not clever at all .i also learn to improve my weakness. i hope to learn more from other and be a useful person. hope one day i should able to find my interest .
i saying this not becuase of anything. erm i maybe are the one of them inside but i want to type my views here.
i am sorry if i offence you .

happy mother's day to all mummy!=D /// 5/09/2010 09:13:00 PM

Last week, i discuss with my sister why not we treat mummy eat dinner on mother's day. my piggy bank so pathetic left $20.sister said ok ! plus sister's $20 equal $40!i asked bro got saving ma.he said dont have.$2 want?._.! Around 6pm, we went down to cofffe shop to eat dinner. it being so long one family sit down to eat. =D We order clay tofu, vegetable +mushroom, fish slices soup , chicken wing ,french fries and mango chicken! OMG nice nice! $40 can eat so much! haha so worth=)
Mummy have being the one who give birth to me. The one scold or hit me. The one that dote on me. The one cook foods to me.The one who care for me.The one quarrel with me. The one take tolerate my temper. The one who provide me to study. The one always take care of me when i get sick.i wanted to said
HAPPY MOTHER DAY TO YOU MUMMY!=)

sometime something just doesnt seem right... /// 5/08/2010 09:55:00 AM

sometime i just felt:
i begin to talk lesser and lesser.
lastime i will talk more but now, when there topic to talk then i talk.
i begin to be in my "mini games" world when i got bored.
recently, i into mini games in i touch or handphone.
i begin to be stand at other views .when thing happen, i will stand at both views by not siding anyone of them.
i begin to be bad-tempered.
i show my temper when i get stressed
i begin to be very stress easily.
my module is tough sometime.when i am a slow learner.i need time to slowly absorb what i learn.
i begin to get frustrated so easily
i get frustrated when i kept on figure out the question how to do but end up u did not get the final answer.
sometime i begin to be a boring person .
i begin to dislike ppl who compare and compare.my father compare me to sister and brother. i felt so insulting .it was early in the morning he shouted and said that.u know i wanted to wake up and shouted back but i know if i shout more.he shout even more so i went to sleep.
i begin to not to take the first inititive to talk to ppl.
i begin to feel so helpless sometime
i begin to get hard to open up to frens
i begin to be mean in somehow.

i begin to be" fierece ba"
i reaslied sometime when i answer their question ,they said why u so fierce. or maybe my tone ba?

i should slowly change the negative of me ba.

SONG! /// 5/03/2010 11:19:00 PM

There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some bitter endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo,
Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
Life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.
There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,
I never should've taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.
And all the things that break you,
Are all the things that make you strong,
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone,
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all,
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Lessons learned.