reflection /// 6/30/2010 10:51:00 PM
I choose the road to studying in ite. thought for the past 1 years++. it was up and down. but there were always happy moment in it.i got awesome cher that care for whole class. i got awesome friends too but there are many quarrels. friends get tired. true, i seriously tired.my main aim is to be happy and got into poly. so why not, let it be happy.
A big quarrel occur, it lasted for few weeks. ya she right. i always quarrel, show attitude/temper. i am like that. i really dont want to hurt anyone. dont want to make the surrounding tired. friends are tired too. i am tired too. i got so affected by you all coz i too care friends. A care got a limitation. i care over and get senitive over thing.
Before the first weeks of holiday start, i feel so stress and almost cry everyday for my mistake i make, for thinking of leaving the group, for blaming myself. it just doesnt seem right at all. i feel so helpless and useless. thought i cry alot, but i learn something too. i learn something .i learn to forgive and forget the quarrel. now thinking back, i have no hard feeling now. i feel more relax.
People do come in your life and walked away. it really occur in my life. my grandpa, grandma, my big aunt , other people have walked away in my life. at that moment, i always feel utterly sad. i lost someone that are a respect to me. i attend so many funeral that i so scared of going anymore. i really fear of see ppl passed away. how would it feel when u lost someone u close to. i think it really heartbroken.when i see so many ppl die. i feel so haiz.why ppl have to passed away. but that what life are. ppl born and ppl passed away. it like a cycle.
After all this happen, i really learn to smile when i sorrow or wheary. when u are sad, always do remember to smile coz there alwayss tomorrow. now, i always tell myself this. coz your life will be worthlive for.
Got once, i go see god's message. message:that no matter how good you try to be to others, you will occasionally hurt them. Forgive yourself for it. The same will happen with them. Forgive them for it.ya right. i really agree to it.
quarrels?!?! now it time to slow down and think why ? when goes wrong? why quarrel always happen. i found the answer. the answer is myself.
i got alot problem i have overcome in ahead. i got the fears i got to overcome. i got my dreams to achieve.
one day, i want to be like a strong tree and overcome all the fears that hidden in my heart. when wind blows,i am still standing there.
looking at this leaf. there still hope in it. i will hold
on to the hope that one day. i will overcome all
the fears .jia you♥♥♥
Amanda♥