JOELLE AU! /// 9/28/2010 12:41:00 AM
DEAR JOELLE!
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU!WISHING ALL YOURS DREAM COME TRUE MAN!=D
i gonna write it out loud to my loving frens when their birthday is on that day=)
FROM JIA YI!
Today, i meet joelle around 11am. lol! and we took bus to bedok and take mrt to marina barrage. this is funny. i was suppose to give her a suprise but end up jia yi was super blur and not confident in direction. ask her how go marina...hahahaha!>.< opps so sorry about it. but she say aiyo.... u ar want bring me go end up i have to bring u go that place...hahaha! funny =) when we reached marina barrage. it was so windy... haha i love it... lol! wind were very strong man. all the kite flying all over...and everyone screaming. after awhile, it started to have thunder and when ivy and vann came.. it rain. we didnt get to fly kite but nevermind. we end up pinic downstair. so call the INDOOR PINIC! lol! it was quite relaxing too... i do jelly! vann do hotdog+crabstick. ivy do ham sandwich and ribena! haha! add up it was healthy and delicious.lol!=) funny part is vann told me go toilet and they prepare the cake. i was so not sure what she say. call and act as if i talking to mummy. lol! but joelle au so clever ar... knew i calling ivy and vann. argh sad.. i always the one always say wrong thing>.< haha! this is me ar..too honest..LOL! overall we sang "happy birthday" song to joelle au.... i even video the process of her wrapping the present and handmade gift we made for her..... so funny!!! took alot photo too... =) it was a short and sweet birthday for u joelle.glad u enjoy alot..=) after that, we went shopping and ate justacia. hahahaha! i was so full and yet have to eat the cake...lol! cannot eat too full if not i vomit again..LOL! i brought two shoes.. i am shoes-LOVER!!!=) time fly fast.. soon they going thailand and i so gonna miss THEM! love ya!!!
see this message and find it 100% true. i see reflection on others nowaday.
GOD'S Message
... that you do not see things as they are. You see them as you are. When you look, you see reflections of your being. When you listen, you hear echoes of yourself. If you don't like something about what you see and hear, no point in smashing the mirror, change who you are becoming
Be happy is the best. sadness/angry i will try throw it all away coz it only make me feel more worse only.
MUST WATCH=D /// 9/23/2010 10:36:00 PM
recently, i watched this two drama.... intro by frens=)the drama is
My Girlfriend is a Gumiho & Sungkyunkwan Scandal.
My Girlfriend is a Gumiho
Cha Tae Woong (Lee Seung Gi) meets a girl (Shin Min Ah) and falls in love with her. The girl is actually a gumiho, a legendary fox with nine tails that eats the livers of humans. When he finds out that she is a gumiho, he ends up doing crazy things to prevent the girl from eating his liver.
--dramawiki
Sungkyunkwan ScandaL
This drama is set in Sungkyunkwan University during the Joseon era, revolving around the exploits and love stories of four youths. When her younger brother falls ill, Kim Yoon Hee enters the school in his place disguised as a boy in her desperation to find a way to support him, and becomes friends with Lee Sun Joon, extremely rich and the brains of the gang, playboy Goo Yong Ha and the rebellious Moon Jae Shin.
--dramawiki
MUST GO TRY WATCH! it really nice drama=) cant wait for the NEW EP TO GET UPLOAD!=D
A REALLY BIG SCREAM AND CRY /// 9/13/2010 11:34:00 PM
i hate myself seriously. last time, i was very moood swing and so emotional. every single friends care for me and some even feel tired of it. i am seriously sorry. trying to change for few month ago, thing didnt change at all. i make ppl feel tired, guilty ,some even cry becoz of me. i really feel very guilty of it. sometime even sit at the bed crying on myself.. i do not know how to overcome the fear of that" guiltyness". i always try to cover my mistake i make but neverless it still happen. u see for the past few month, did you see a change in me.i dont see a change in myself. thing always happen due to my tone, my words, my way of reacting. i do hate myself. i want to change but until the limit that i dunno who am i anymore. i have that" big communciation "problem with ppl around me. i hate myself for not expressing the word clearly enough to ppl. parent misunderstand me and dont understand me of how much i do want to go thailand. i know i am that person who even my parent say no. i still perserve to ask coz i really do hope to heard a answer"yes" from them. it too late now. all my effort of talking to them have gone case. i am sorry to react so attitude infront of my mother .making her very tired. i spoke to her on phone today and say sorry to her. but for father, i really dont know how to talk to him without he showing temper every single time. i know i have been pretty rebellious nowaday but i didnt mean it. i am sincerely sorry. i know i wrong to shouted back at my sister and brother. but u all will always say i wrong somehow. i know i wrong at that time but what i hope so much for is a person there to heard what i saying now and whyi react like this. it getting tougher now.i became so fragile now. going to break any time in soon.
keep on crying and crying but that is the way to express it out . tear that how sad i am now. i hate myself for hurting everyone of them around me. i am really sorry.
sincerely post by jia yi.
/// 9/09/2010 11:13:00 PM
really dont know what shall i start. maybe going to close down my blog soon. blog is dying and noone visiting my blog le. tagboard is dying too...lol
maybe this shall be my last blog post.opps
was very busying with my stuff nowaday.
just want everything to be allright.
YESTERDAY
seriously thought was over. i only sad over i cant go thailand and that all. i really very upset. i always say "u all can go thailand". i know i wrong but i saying in a joking way afterall. dont treat it seriously. i am really upset about cant go thailand. and that all.
i cant convince my daddy at all . nomatter how much i say but i just cant go.it my communciation with daddy..my relationship with daddy is worse . he wont listen to me even i say very nicely. my daddy is like that. please understand why i react like that . i realised it hard to commuciate with ppl nowaday. i losing my confidence to talk to ppl. maybe my way of talking is really wrong. sorry about it.
TODAY
after chatting with them about it. i feel better somehow. thanks girls. i know thing will always happen becoz of my tone. sometime i really hate myself becoz of it. tone that make ppl feel sad, stress up, feeling guilty. please dont misunderstand it by my tone. it really is like that le. i am not meaning what u all thinking. but i know u will say my tone have prove it. ya maybe u all are right. but it not what i meaning. i am sorry if i let u feel that way. i thankful for the chat that make me burst and feeling better. ya seriously, i do scared ppl walk away. it not the first time anymore. i know it yours way. but do please sit down calmly and talk to me in patiently .i may not understand once but i will understand slowly. i really dont want it to happen again. i am tired too.sometime it really break me down. friends are mean like a family to me . a single words/reaction that make me feel sad. i dont want to be sensitive and emotional one anymore.
no more thing is going to happen anymore. if it happen, maybe i will choose to give up suddenly on myself and choose to close up myself.
i am so sorry about typing " in my world, there no " true friends' . sometime i do feel it. but i know there some somewhere.
thanks alot for the chat girls! do appreciated.
=( /// 9/02/2010 10:22:00 PM
sudden stop for few minutes and think of my future. i cant be like a kids always get guide from everyone.
learning . today go lla. i cant think of a words leadership. i have no qualities of leadership at all.
i always follow ppl i project. i cant be independant. i am so weak. i really hate it.
i TRYING to be strong from that DAY ONWARDS. A DAY I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER.
i love the times spend in ite. but time passed so fast. it gonna end soon. and we gonna lost contact .
it always like that. everyone have their own life to live. i have no right to control.
that day, already know this life is very complicated. it not what u think. it differet
everyone have it own views. and have their right to do what they want. after this upcoming exam,
i will be going attentment for 2months plus. i gonna missed schooling =(
after ite, when should i go next? poly/work? i really have to decide on my own.
i am so happy everyone have it aims. but my aims always keep on changing.
my road infront is so blur now. i am 19 already. not young anyone. it time for me
to think now....
Amanda♥
