Jia Yi=D

Today my life begins

2011-10-19T22:18:00.004+08:00

i was searching for new song and found this song through youtube:)
Today my life begins - Bruno Mars
I've been working hard so longSeems like pain has been my only friendMy fragile heart's been done so wrongI wondered if I'd ever heal againOhh just like all the seasons never stay the sameAll around me I can feel a change (ohh)I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find meLeave the past behind me, today my life beginsA whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takinI know I can make it, today my life beginsYesterday has come and goneAnd I've learnt how to leave it where it isAnd I see that I was wrongFor ever doubting I could winOhh just like all the seasons never stay the sameAll around me I can feel a change (ohh)I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find meLeave the past behind me, today my life beginsA whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takinI know I can make it, today my life beginsLife's to short to have regretsSo I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forgetOnly have one life to liveSo you better make the best of itI will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find meLeave the past behind me, today my life beginsA whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takinI know I can make it, today my life beginsI will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find meLeave the past behind me, today my life beginsA whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takinI know I can make it, today my life beginsToday my life begins

I BACK!:)

2011-10-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

It been so long i update my blog. i going to updated with some quotes that i always keep in my mind which really taught me to forgive and forget and also to stay strong whenever i go or i do.i found this poem through web abd find it really interesting.

In every human life,
there are some moments when one is sad and depressed
Frustrated from every zone of life,
And feel like leaving everything & going away
And Life Goes on …
Some moments in which
one is wrapped with tensions
one wants to get out of them
and fly high in the sky
But cant run away, and life goes on …
Some moments in which,
one who adores hurts sentiments,
one needs a support, a shoulder to dry on,
But doesn’t find one , and life goes on …
Some moments in which one gets tired of life
or so intensely hurt that one wants to die
one wishes to end up with
life at that very moment, and life goes on …
And in every human life on day arrives
When there is a big halt to one’s life.
And then the people cry
and show that they were concerned
Then the question arises
Do they wait for one’s death,
To care, To understand the one
If so, then wait till death and untill then
LIFE GOES ON

Read more: http://www.poetryoflife.com/life-goes-on/#ixzz1axBXwp89

new school

2011-05-01T23:34:00.000+08:00

new life in polytechnic, new environment. i trying to adapt to it. its so much different from ITE life.my first week have just ended. i have make alot of friends. on the other hand, i have alot stuff to do such as project and quiz. i have to print lecture and tutorial note. plently of things to be done . i really have to managed my time wisely. i must really work hard for the next 3 years.
what is my diffculties in poly?
my diffculties is unable to cope with the modules.

i really have to listen ,understand and do fast...
the worst fears is english. the way i speak is not fluent at all. i do hope friends help to correct if i pronoun wrongly /speak in a "singlish " way.

2011-02-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

have u ever feel so tired of helping,caring. and yet i got is noting,blaming .its is hurtful to received all those words.
have u ever lost trust from anyone of them. i do. its driftly away. once its happy and next its went down striaght down.
have u ever want a listener to be there. yes i do want but cant really find one. all is busy .they have their own problem so i should not add more trouble to them.
for that moment, i really feel so troubled. let times heals and continue my life.
do u know its sad and happy when grad nearby, happy coz i reached my goals. sad is maybe we wont contact anymore. that sad.
maybe its good not to be so close with someone coz its may make u feel dissappointed/sad/angry.

WELCOME 2011!

2011-01-02T01:57:00.002+08:00

WELCOME YEAR 2011! the last day of year 2010, i manage to see firework with my da jie!:) though only we two but its awesome!:) i hope everyone be successful in whatever u do, AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!:D

IN 2011:
i hope to go overseas to relax ad enjoy after grad with friends.
i hope to be strong person and to overcome anything infront of me.
i hope i can go poly.
i hope to have a class chalet before grad.i hope a band new year 2011 gonna be a fun and enjoying one.
i hope i would able to stay contact with my friendsthough we have grad:)

FORGIVE AND FORGET! forget the past and move on in year 2011.

2010-12-30T21:03:00.000+08:00

to friends:i can be harsh/mean in words . ya maybe i did not think of ppl feeling? but i think striaghtforward is better then hide it in heart? wasnt it? and now u say me being too harsh? i gonna say one more time, that day i have already say i will be harsh. so dont blame for me harsh. its my temper.everyone have temper too. wasnt it? if that day were u, i bet u will be me . honestly,that day i just felt she was the one making it worse. so i just say it out. words are already say out so if u think i am harsh . yes i am. i agree. no point saying harsh anot, coz i already say le. why i delete u from sister. becoz u give me a feeling u doesnt give a dam to my msg, give excuse to me, sms u out to movie or whatsoever. u doesnt give me a reply. i felt so stupid seriously for caring this type of firends... and that why once it reached my limitation and i delete u.please dont say i didnt try to understand her point of views.u think i didnt think of her feeling??? no i disagree. do u think i that type of friends that doesnt care/ try to understand.if u think i am. i have noting to say. i tried my best to understand whenever she tell me. i try to ask her what happen? that the way of my care. its was her who didnt tell me. so i not blaming her for not telling me all? i am not that type of person u must say all to me. everyone have the right to say it to the person he/she want to talk about. wasnt it?so if u still think i didnt think of her feeling then i have noting to say.if u think i siding they all, nomatter how many time i say i am not siding. u all will think i siding them. i serously have noting to say.until now, i treat everyone as friends. everyone have different view/different personatilies.so i think noone is right nor wrong. since u think i keep say noone take initive to talk about it.then when school reopen, i promise u i gonna ask each and everyone to sit down and talk about it. if one of them doesnt want to stay, then i have noting to say. i just hope everyone can be straightforward. say whatever u keep in heart....

All i want for christmas is you !

2010-12-20T10:43:00.003+08:00

she really sang it so well. i kept on listen to it! awesome!:)

2010-12-19T00:29:00.000+08:00

finally 17 dec mark the end of my attachment:) its holiday for many of them but i was ask to extend to work. its good. i can earn some money. i hope i can buy myself a lappy. christmas is coming..i hope i can celebrate with friends. haahaha sadly i am working. but nevermind night can joinu all for dinner. i feeling relax when i was always listen music while on the way traveling.looking out the window and see how much thing have changed.time u lost your beloved, time that u quarrel with friends/family, time when i feel so happy .this are all memories that are sad/angry/happy. i will keep it in heart. most important now is be happy now. i want to be a strong girl that will overcome all obstacle infront of me.

LIFE IS UNFAIR!

2010-12-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

life is SO UNFAIR!i dunno why i so nice to ppl when my words/msg is not appreciaited. not a single reply. i seriously start to dislike ppl that doesnt reply to me. i dunno why i must take words so seriously? and end up disappointed with them. how i hope i can be cold to each and everyone. i tired of being the nice person and let them think i a very ok person. i have what i dun like and like. how i hope i can be mean. but i just cant do it. life is unfair. i learnt that when u treat that person nicely, dont expected return from any of them coz u only feel dissappointed. even that person treat u badly, u must not treat them badly. i will try.

2010-12-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

i dislike friends that lie me.i dislike friends that doesnt give a dam to my msg.i will not give a dam to this type of friends. u are not worth for my care.i so stupid to care for this type of friends seriously. what for? i should have care for myself rather.i msg u nicely in fb . and u didnt give a dam to my msg. u say will reply when u on. what a nice lie?dont botter to give a reply when u everyday on fb? and give all those excuses? nice one.what a friend. i see though you already. i shall not care much. what for i say so much when u dont give a dam. i just wasting my effort to do that. i am so stupid seriously.forget it. i type out to burst my feeling only. 8th weeks attachment is passed1 left 2 more weeks! JIA YOU ALL!:)

horrible week

2010-11-27T21:27:00.004+08:00

one blow by another hitting me. family problem. work problem. friends problem. i getting affected by it.
family problem really hurt me the most. but now family getting abit ok. mother talk to me but i didnt talk to my father at all. i think like that is better. time will heals everything. i doenst want to say about what really happen coz its hurt me deeply. i know i say i will cry.

work problem, this week got abit obstacle. i not the person who will create problem. i just doing my part of asking. or listening to what engineer say, u know i almost want to cry coz too many thing happen but i just didnt drop my tears. lucky i didnt drop. if not let them see i so weak. nvm its over. i must work hard for last few weeks, enjoy the 3 weeks there.

friends problem. i doesnt know what to do. i listen to both party but doesnt know how to help. i want one side to talk about it. but its seem hard. vann and joelle know me too well, knew i will say. end up i really say it almost all out. i say out coz i hope pei ling would go talk about it. but its seem complicated. seriously i dunno what to do. noone at both party want to talk about it. vann and joelle say leave clique. please dont say it so easily. its just some misunderstanding, different views, different feeling.
u right. i should stand at yours view . i trying to stand at both side. u know when i meet vann and joelle. i trying to say pei ling not like what u means. but when i tell pei ling, i telling u two feeling. i not siding any of you. i just want u all to know i feeling very xin gu to see all like that. i doesnt want to see everyone to fall part .

maybe i seem weak, my friends having runnynose and friday, i having runnynose . today, i went to see doctor. hope its gonna be ok coz i working on monday.

thanks friends always console me. that what i need more. a listener there to understanding how i feel right now .i will be ok. no worry. even a simply a thing make me smile.

Gift Of A Friend LyricsSometimes You think You'll Be Fine by Yourself
Cause a Dream is a Wish You Make all alone
Its Easy to Feel Like You Dont Need Help
But Its Harder To Walk On Your Own
You'll ChangeInsideWhen YouRealize
The World Comes To Life
and Everything's bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend
The Gift of a Friend
Someone Who knows When Your Lost and Your Scared
There through The Highs and The Lows
Someone toCount On
Someone Who Cares
Besides You Where Ever You Go
You'll Change Inside
When You
Realize
The World Comes To Life
and Everythings bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend
And When your Hope Crashes Down
Shattering To The Ground
You , You Feel All Alone
When You Don't Know Which Way To Go
And There's No signs Leading You home
You're Not Alone
The World Comes To Life
and Everything's bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe In
When You Believe In
When you Believe
The Gift of A Friend

Disney´s friends for change - Send it on Official Music video with lyri...

2010-11-25T22:48:00.000+08:00

2010-11-24T07:58:00.002+08:00

words i wanna to say.

feeling

2010-11-22T23:32:00.004+08:00

this song give me encouragement. after listening to this song. i feeling much better now. there up and down in my life. i gonna be strong to overcome it. TIME WILL SOLVE EVERYTHING. JIA YOU JIA YI:) WHAT IS TRUE FRIENDS?i got it now. there are friends that will be there for you when time goby:)

2010-11-20T15:49:00.001+08:00

WHY WHY WHY???

2010-11-20T00:52:00.001+08:00

i advise ppl. ppl advise me. its easy to say then do.not all thing i say before, i can do it.but i do hope ppl dont compare. whatever way u compare, u get negative thought in mind which is true. i believe in 'NOONE IS PERFECT" and " NOTING IS PERFECT" sometime i wonder why is life so unfair. ppl treat different ppl differently. it just the fact life is what it is. during attachment, i always wonder why this and that. i have endless mindset in mind. non stop which is same. conclusion is it is mend to be like that? i trying not to care anymore. the more i care the more i keep thinking. i just want to make more frens and enjoy my life with my frens and family. full of happy moment. noone want live their life full of sadness? right?

attachment period is actually a really nice experience for me.i learn to actually tolerate different ppl attiude and to accept what other bad negative comment. there something i really do appreciated. when i do wrong, they wont scold but they encourage me. this is the way i want. it kinda werid when i received encouragement. i always try even harder or careful not to repeat the same mistake again. i always scared to break the laptop part. and always ask for help if it really cant pull it out. i enjoy working there. i met nice frens and get to talk to them automatically. jokingwith them and communciate with them. as time go by, it getting better. sometime i get tired due to lack of sleep but i always cross the road and tell myself" jia you jia yi" it give strength to persevere. i thinking postively and really do hope i contuie to be who i am to be. this attachment let me grow up alittle. to know the working world and how tired it can be. to be independant. to b sociable. to be adapatable.

DRAMA LOVER!:)

2010-11-14T18:47:00.002+08:00

recently, i was watching two drama. it was nice!

first one is this!

Mary Stayed Out All Night

Wi Mae Ri is a stubborn woman and the daughter of a failed businessman without much experience in dating. She starts to date tough rocker Kang Moo Kyul. Problems arise when a perfect guy with a good background and prestigious education, Byun Jung In, gets in the way.

Another is this !

This drama involves 12 different stories which happened to teenagers, taken from real life social cases. Shen Qi is a student who has a brain tumor, giving him the ability to see Death Girl when no one else can. As he witnesses her task of ferrying different people to the afterlife, he gradually falls in love with her and begins to understand the transition between life and death.

ON FRIDAY:)

2010-11-14T18:37:00.000+08:00

i so happy! 5 weeks of attachment is over! LEFT WITH 5 WEEKS! jia youuuu classmates!!!:)during friday, i was so silly. i lost that dam tiny rubber on LCD. I SO PANICKED!!! coz i meeting amanda and joelle for dinner! but i was so late! i was searching for that tiny rubber....>..<.... even one of them say i found it ...but actually he didnt found. he was a joker ar... until the end, i really cant find it. this is sad. i feel so guilty. no choice after that, everyone go off tgt. then i rush to meet amanda and joelle! i was so sorry i was so late>..< i enjoy alot thanks to babes!hope to have more dinner like this with frens:) upcoming is 6 weeks of attachment! i gonna make it a enjoyable and fun one ! jia you all!:)

A short chat with sec school frens+ harry potter trail!

2010-11-11T08:05:00.003+08:00
although it quite late but i still rush down to meet my sec school frens. i like group of many frens whereby i can chat with them, meet up with them. it being months i meet up with them. ahaha! chit-chat about our story. and kelly went sleeping. this is lol! haha she too tired. although it a short hours but i still enjoy it. next time should meet up more girls! i meeting those days in sec. hahaha:)

HARRY POTTER IS COMING UP IN MOVIE! I WANT TO WATCH! hahahaaaa!

MOODY

2010-11-09T21:03:00.000+08:00
I am late today. dunno why my alarm is off. i remember i comfirm on my alarm .but end up the alarm didnt rang. i wake up at 10am+ which my work is at 10am. this is sad. panicked until i cried. this is horrible. my moood getting fked up. maybe it due to period? o man. really fking agitated................. sad......and moody suddnely. i hope it gonna be ok soon. went home tell mum i late. thought would get some console from her but i get blame. when i reached the work. my fren also say me late.. leh later behind log book got mark late. it make me sad. what can i do/ blame myself for late and the end. haiz... dunno why it just simply late and i cry. i feel so weak. i hate it. ppl think i weak .i hate that.
hope for the next few weeks. no more late. i gonna ask bro help me on alarm le.

MOOD FOR THE DAY:
   "MOODY BLUES"

2010-11-06T11:18:00.001+08:00

Dear IVY and SALLEH:
TWO OF THEM going "19" le!SO FAST! hope u having fun with yours beloved friends . and ALSO TMR WITH US! hahahaaa! :D now u TWO are back in sg. let find one time to gather tgt AND hve a nice chat tgt SOON! haha!alittle msg for BOTH OF YOU haha!

LASTLYYYYYYYYYY!
hope u two saw it:D

5 NOV!

2010-11-05T13:19:00.000+08:00
one months pass le. and u all are coming back.that is so fast. meaning my ATTACHMENT have been for 4 weeks. i left with 6 more weeks! JIA YOU ALL!:D
today i am going to fetch them at night! hahahaa! wonder how they are. hope everything gone well in thailand.haha!:)

WELCOME BACK GIRLS!:D
quotes is way for me to be strong somehow!
haha!

3rd weeks attachment is over!

2010-10-31T21:50:00.001+08:00
time fly so fast. 3 weeks of attachment is over. tmr will be the beginining of 4th weeks attachment. jia you for those having attachment!!!!!
my 3rd weeks of attachment was ok. i got to repair alot of lappy. yesterday was most busy days. alot of customer. cso was so busy. behind alot of lappy to repair.i am so tired . after that, i received a call when i am going home.vann called me for dinner. haha was tired actually but stll agree to go for dinner coz i have not see her for sometime. we eat dinner and chit-chat non stop . haha! glad she doing fine for her attachment. i hope my following 6 weeks of attachment is going to be fine. i having runny-nose now. argh.
DEAR JOELLE,IVY,PEILING,
i see you all status seem abit down. i not really sure what really happen but hope u all are feeling ok le. smile girls.most importantly is hope u all enjoy during this one month of thailand trip.
next friday, i going to T1 to see u all. hope i wont be late coz i work until 7pm+++ . i shall meet amanda if possible so long no see her..hahaha!=)
i like this 3 quotes!

last weeks , i see this quotes at the wall at where i having attachment now. i find it so interesting!

every ppl got their ANGER!

2010-10-29T23:39:00.001+08:00
i brought nov teenages and found this topic attact me. it just like sth about me somehow.
Anger can blind us to reality
sometime ppl can misunderstnad what the other person(s) has said and react negatively to it. it important to clarift what you heard or think you may have heard instead of getting angry. this will help you control emotions. sometimes, ppl can get angry at the most innocent comment made. it might be goosd to stop, seek clarification and then respond. if you have the self-control to act this way, chances are, you will not fly off the handle so easily.

Practice persuation
one of the cleverest ways to control your temper is to practice the art of persuaion .if you can persude ppl to look at things from your point of view, you will be able to turn a possible explosive situation into one where discussion and consensus can be arrived at, ths defusing anger

NEVER LET ANGER INTERFERE WITH YOUR HAPPINESS, PEACE OF MIND AND YOUR ABILITY TO KEEP FRENS
many ppl get angry. if they wont vent theiranger verbally, they sometimes keep it bottled up inside. this can lead to stress, lashing out at an innocent ppl,child,animal orl etting it fester,which resullt in great unhappiness. some ppl have held grudges for years and this greatly redues their ability to live ap eaceful and happy life, dont let this happen to you.

Dont let anger destroy family relationship
some ppl allow anger to take control of then and this has led to sad situations.parents have disinherited children, silbing have ceased to communciate, relatives have ended long, loving relationship, and ppl have left good jobs all because of anger. unresolved anger can destroy one's quality of life.

every ppl got anger and i learning to deal with my anger .

WATCH DRAMA IS MY FAVOURITE!

2010-10-25T10:35:00.003+08:00

Mischievous Kiss

Synopsis
Based on the popular manga, Oh Ha Ni is a clumsy student who falls the perfectionist, Baek Seung Jo. However Seung Jo is indifferent towards her and rejects her love. When Ha Ni's house collapses, she and her father move into his long-time friend's house. It turns out that Seung Jo is the friend's son and Ha Ni is given the opportunity to be near the guy she loves. Will she be able to move Seung Jo's heart?..
P.S. Man

After the famous author Xia He Jie crashed the movie premiere that supermodel Amanda attended, he was sentenced to 158 hours of community service at a kindergarten. And thus, it began the most hellish 158 hours of his life. There he met Ma Xiao Qian, a teacher who not only didn't fall for his charming personality like the rest of the female population, she made him suffer for every minute of his community service. What he didn't know was that Xiao Qian was a former neighbor who he had bullied relentlessly as a child. Now, she is bent on revenging for the miserable childhood that she endured under his tyrannical reign. ..
i have just watched finish this two drama... now going watched another drama which is this and waiting ssk to uploaded(exciting part coming up)!!!
Shining Inheritance

Synopsis
This will be focusing on the love and trials of the 20 year old generation. Go Eun Sung's life is similar to Cinderella's. After her father died, her step-mother, Baek Sung Hee, took away all of her assets and her younger brother, Eun Woo, suddenly disappears without a trace. Eun Sung preservers and works really hard to become a chef at a food company. The grandson of the food company, Sun Woo Hwan, notices Eun Sung and falls in love with her.
i starting to become a DRAMA-LOVER! haha! =)
another weeks of attachment is over le. 2 weeks is gone! i have being trying to learning there! this weeks is special. they finally let us dismatle LCD and this weeks overall is ok. it is very fragile which is most exp. haha! hope i can do my best over there! =)anyway,my working timing have change from tues to sat. which mean sun and mon if my rest days....lol!finally yesterday called vann, glad she doing fine!happy that amanda is doing is fine too!JIA YOU BABE=)
2 weeks gone MEAN U ALL COMING BACK

IN 2 WEEKS MORE!haha!

i found this song from youtube very interesting and meaningful.

1st week of attachment

2010-10-17T23:24:00.001+08:00
first week of attachment was quite ok. haha! first few days, i wans learning about how to dismantle the laptop and what to write on the paper after finish repair, how to to do check on it, how to do cloning and etc. there was more to learn too. overall was quite ok.haha! the supervisor asked me why u want do repair but dont want to do customer service . i replied repair is what i wanna try. the ppl there are quite ok. i learn alot from them. =) hope my upcoming 9 weeks is gonna be fine andi really hope i can cope=)

one weeks have gone le. my weekends fly so fast. i have just beginning to watch P.S MAN. nice drama i can say. haha!=) sad that i dun have webcam. i can only heard and see my frens who are in thailand now. i bet they are having LOTS OF FUN.HAHA! enjoy man! there 3 weeks more i can see u all. weekends and friday is my favourite. days i can spend to REST!!!!=Dtmr is the 2nd week le! JIA YOU TO THOSE HAVING ATTAHCMENT NOW!=)

MESSAGE TO FRIENDS

2010-10-09T01:19:00.006+08:00
Dear pei ling mummy:
it great to have uuuuuuuuuuuuuu around caring each and everyone .u are going thailand in 1 day time, that fast. missing my mummy soon! must take care of yourself in thailand. must drink alot alot water. jia you for the project! i believe u can do it! enjoy the one month trip to thailand. haha see u bring so much money go.confirm buy alot ar..hahahaha! so must becareful your bag when shopping! when u back remember msg me oh!haha!=) knew u wont see my blog but nevermind ! so gonna miss u=)

Dear ivy:
it great to have u as BUDDY . A fren that help me and guide me when i in need and fren that always there when i sad!.=)A fren that i always quarrel with but we solve it misunderstanding and do hope u forget all the quarrel and we are BUDDY!!! love the ivy that always walk away when agitated ar. can run striaght only cannot run left ,right oh...hahahaha!u are always the one that always care for me . thanks so mucccccccccccchhhhhhh ! even though sometime we tend to quarrel but i in process to control emotion. i hate quarrel this time round. haha!=) soon u flying off to thailand, so gonna miss u ! being leader is not easy but i believe u can le! jia you for the project! must drink alot water and take care yourself!enjoy the one months trip to thailand!=)must remember to msg me oh.

Dear joelle:
even though u seem to hide the true self and tend hard to be open now. always remember not to take words in heart. be postive though sometime u really felt sad/angry. must really control your emotion joelle. noone want see u sad/angry but want see u happy!!!=) so always give yourself time to cool and think postively rather than negative. throw away the past and be yourself. the joelle who i first met before. the one always tell me to think postive. where is she now? somewhere inside you!=) every single fren around u care for you.i know u cant be open in one day but be natural. u will natuallyyyyyyy be OPEN LE! i believe u can coz u are joelle au ! hahahah!=) soon u flying off to thailand in one day time. must remember what i told u. enjoy the one month thailand trip. it a oppuntities so u must appreciate it and enjoy as much as you can. jia you for project! must take care yourself and drink alot of water. do contact me..... coz i so gonna miss you!=)must msg me oh!

Dear amanda:

even through we seldom have heart to heart talk. but i always treat u as a fren! a fren that knew that i unhappy and would ask me and advise me. u are just like a sister to me!happy to know u are attach to IBM! jia you for attahcment and hope u won't give yourself too much stress . just try your best coz i know u can do it one! amanda is da BEST!!!=)SMS ME when u feel bored. i will reply u as soon as possbile!!!hahahaahahahah!

Dear vann:
i love vann mummy! A buddy there for me. always there to talk to me and comfort me when i sad .thanks so mucccccccchhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i always love talking to you on phone. we always share our sorrow to each other last time. i do hope u still will call me anytime when u need me1 i always there for you!=) A CALL I WILL LISTEN TO YOUR SORROW!=) glad u are attach to acer with other classmate. so good!!! haha! even through we aren ot the same but it ok! i HOPE WE CNA MEET FOR DINNER!!!!sms me oh^_^ jia you for attachment!!!! =)

three of them are going there for like one month and vann,amanda and me will be staying in singapore for our attachment! we are going to miss u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!! MUST TAKE CARE AND REMEMBER OT CONTACT US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!must not forget us oh!!^_^
TO PB0904W:
JIA YOU TO THOSE GOING THAILAND FOR THE PORJECT! take care and have great trip there!!!ENJOYYYYY!!=DD
JIA YOU TO THOSE HAVING ATTAHCMENT IN SINGAPORE!!!!learn as much as possible......... and i so gonna miss my CLASS!argh.....

now thinking back, i somehow thanks father dont let me go thailand .it somehow good now that i hope i can learn something through this attachment and gonna use this time to see if i can cope myself independently.... =)

To frens:
u all raise me up!!!!
Becky Taylor- You raise me up (with lyrics)

ONE WORDS TO DESCRIBLE=FUN!

2010-10-01T23:14:00.000+08:00
28SEPT
Behind the scene zoo!
i am the type of person who get excited when it due to something that led to my curiously.i get curious over thing and want to know more about it. was quite excited about this zoo trip behind the scene. i went to meet the girls for lunch. until 12.45pm we tooked our attendance and off we go. lol! when reached the zoo, we went to a room listening to the talk. lol! i kept on yawn but i find it very interesting when the person talk about the animals . after the talk, we went to surgery room. wow! look really cool inside man. thought that got a smell in it. but it not that worse then rubbish bin . it such of wet market smell. wow! it really interesting going in see. especially the room that kept all the dead animal. didnt really see much . only see a dead stringray and turtle. such a pity animal are like human too. they died of a certain age too. after that, i thought there will more aobut the zoo. but no more. we are given around 2h to tour the zoo ourself. so we went to tour see animal. i wanted to see giffare and polar bear the most. i also saw the magazine that say halloween day during october. it seem cool. how i hopei can go too. but that is my attachment period le....argh...>.< i love exploring and find the job" vet" interesting. haha1 if one day i am going to work in zoo, i wont mind. facing animal is cool too!lol!after that, we went to meet salleh to buy cake for pei ling birthday . went to bedok to eat our dinner and CHIT-CHAT and home sweet home.
29 SEPT
HAHAHHA!funniest day.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI LING !=D HOPING EVERYTHING U DO WILL COME TRUE. AND FIND A BF SOON AR..HAHA=)
We was supposely to go kbox at the scape. but that customer service is bad. after that, we decide to go party world. haha! this is my first itme go party world.kinda funny is esmond. so high singing making everyone so high.... pei ling and ivy is so high until they stand at sofa ar...hahaha! at first thought i wouldnt sing but ok la... just sing .haha! after that, we went to far east to eat our dinner at pastamania. the manager is so good. one of thme went to ask for lighter. the manager went to buy. and even give pei ling a small chocolate cake. wow! customer service good! haha! customer service is very important. there where the customer judge their service! =) it not a easy job too! after that, we went to marina bay.. wow! it really torture wearing the new shoes walk around. that why i walk very slow...the shoes is like biting my leg.argh>< next time i dont buy this type of shoes . T_T but what amazed me is when i reached there, i am able to see a clear image of casino. wow! alot ppl gambling. we went for some walk and off to mrt. aiyo.. have to walk to circle line mrt station. when i reached home, i found out i have 3 blister on my legs. argh..T_T BUT....OVERALL WAS FUN!=)

JOELLE AU!

2010-09-28T00:41:00.001+08:00
DEAR JOELLE!
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU!WISHING ALL YOURS DREAM COME TRUE MAN!=D
i gonna write it out loud to my loving frens when their birthday is on that day=)
FROM JIA YI!
Today, i meet joelle around 11am. lol! and we took bus to bedok and take mrt to marina barrage. this is funny. i was suppose to give her a suprise but end up jia yi was super blur and not confident in direction. ask her how go marina...hahahaha!>.< opps so sorry about it. but she say aiyo.... u ar want bring me go end up i have to bring u go that place...hahaha! funny =) when we reached marina barrage. it was so windy... haha i love it... lol! wind were very strong man. all the kite flying all over...and everyone screaming. after awhile, it started to have thunder and when ivy and vann came.. it rain. we didnt get to fly kite but nevermind. we end up pinic downstair. so call the INDOOR PINIC! lol! it was quite relaxing too... i do jelly! vann do hotdog+crabstick. ivy do ham sandwich and ribena! haha! add up it was healthy and delicious.lol!=) funny part is vann told me go toilet and they prepare the cake. i was so not sure what she say. call and act as if i talking to mummy. lol! but joelle au so clever ar... knew i calling ivy and vann. argh sad.. i always the one always say wrong thing>.< haha! this is me ar..too honest..LOL! overall we sang "happy birthday" song to joelle au.... i even video the process of her wrapping the present and handmade gift we made for her..... so funny!!! took alot photo too... =) it was a short and sweet birthday for u joelle.glad u enjoy alot..=) after that, we went shopping and ate justacia. hahahaha! i was so full and yet have to eat the cake...lol! cannot eat too full if not i vomit again..LOL! i brought two shoes.. i am shoes-LOVER!!!=) time fly fast.. soon they going thailand and i so gonna miss THEM! love ya!!!

see this message and find it 100% true. i see reflection on others nowaday.
GOD'S Message

On this day, God wants you to know
... that you do not see things as they are. You see them as you are. When you look, you see reflections of your being. When you listen, you hear echoes of yourself. If you don't like something about what you see and hear, no point in smashing the mirror, change who you are becoming

Be happy is the best. sadness/angry i will try throw it all away coz it only make me feel more worse only.

MUST WATCH=D

2010-09-23T22:36:00.002+08:00
recently, i watched this two drama.... intro by frens=)the drama is My Girlfriend is a Gumiho & Sungkyunkwan Scandal.
My Girlfriend is a Gumiho

Cha Tae Woong (Lee Seung Gi) meets a girl (Shin Min Ah) and falls in love with her. The girl is actually a gumiho, a legendary fox with nine tails that eats the livers of humans. When he finds out that she is a gumiho, he ends up doing crazy things to prevent the girl from eating his liver.
--dramawiki

Sungkyunkwan ScandaL

This drama is set in Sungkyunkwan University during the Joseon era, revolving around the exploits and love stories of four youths. When her younger brother falls ill, Kim Yoon Hee enters the school in his place disguised as a boy in her desperation to find a way to support him, and becomes friends with Lee Sun Joon, extremely rich and the brains of the gang, playboy Goo Yong Ha and the rebellious Moon Jae Shin.
--dramawiki

MUST GO TRY WATCH! it really nice drama=) cant wait for the NEW EP TO GET UPLOAD!=D

A REALLY BIG SCREAM AND CRY

2010-09-13T23:34:00.003+08:00

i hate myself seriously. last time, i was very moood swing and so emotional. every single friends care for me and some even feel tired of it. i am seriously sorry. trying to change for few month ago, thing didnt change at all. i make ppl feel tired, guilty ,some even cry becoz of me. i really feel very guilty of it. sometime even sit at the bed crying on myself.. i do not know how to overcome the fear of that" guiltyness". i always try to cover my mistake i make but neverless it still happen. u see for the past few month, did you see a change in me.i dont see a change in myself. thing always happen due to my tone, my words, my way of reacting. i do hate myself. i want to change but until the limit that i dunno who am i anymore. i have that" big communciation "problem with ppl around me. i hate myself for not expressing the word clearly enough to ppl. parent misunderstand me and dont understand me of how much i do want to go thailand. i know i am that person who even my parent say no. i still perserve to ask coz i really do hope to heard a answer"yes" from them. it too late now. all my effort of talking to them have gone case. i am sorry to react so attitude infront of my mother .making her very tired. i spoke to her on phone today and say sorry to her. but for father, i really dont know how to talk to him without he showing temper every single time. i know i have been pretty rebellious nowaday but i didnt mean it. i am sincerely sorry. i know i wrong to shouted back at my sister and brother. but u all will always say i wrong somehow. i know i wrong at that time but what i hope so much for is a person there to heard what i saying now and whyi react like this. it getting tougher now.i became so fragile now. going to break any time in soon.
keep on crying and crying but that is the way to express it out . tear that how sad i am now. i hate myself for hurting everyone of them around me. i am really sorry.
sincerely post by jia yi.

2010-09-09T23:13:00.000+08:00
really dont know what shall i start. maybe going to close down my blog soon. blog is dying and noone visiting my blog le. tagboard is dying too...lol
maybe this shall be my last blog post.opps
was very busying with my stuff nowaday.
just want everything to be allright.
YESTERDAY
seriously thought was over. i only sad over i cant go thailand and that all. i really very upset. i always say "u all can go thailand". i know i wrong but i saying in a joking way afterall. dont treat it seriously. i am really upset about cant go thailand. and that all.
i cant convince my daddy at all . nomatter how much i say but i just cant go.it my communciation with daddy..my relationship with daddy is worse . he wont listen to me even i say very nicely. my daddy is like that. please understand why i react like that . i realised it hard to commuciate with ppl nowaday. i losing my confidence to talk to ppl. maybe my way of talking is really wrong. sorry about it.

TODAY
after chatting with them about it. i feel better somehow. thanks girls. i know thing will always happen becoz of my tone. sometime i really hate myself becoz of it. tone that make ppl feel sad, stress up, feeling guilty. please dont misunderstand it by my tone. it really is like that le. i am not meaning what u all thinking. but i know u will say my tone have prove it. ya maybe u all are right. but it not what i meaning. i am sorry if i let u feel that way. i thankful for the chat that make me burst and feeling better. ya seriously, i do scared ppl walk away. it not the first time anymore. i know it yours way. but do please sit down calmly and talk to me in patiently .i may not understand once but i will understand slowly. i really dont want it to happen again. i am tired too.sometime it really break me down. friends are mean like a family to me . a single words/reaction that make me feel sad. i dont want to be sensitive and emotional one anymore.
no more thing is going to happen anymore. if it happen, maybe i will choose to give up suddenly on myself and choose to close up myself.
i am so sorry about typing " in my world, there no " true friends' . sometime i do feel it. but i know there some somewhere.
thanks alot for the chat girls! do appreciated.

=(

2010-09-02T22:22:00.000+08:00
sudden stop for few minutes and think of my future. i cant be like a kids always get guide from everyone.
learning . today go lla. i cant think of a words leadership. i have no qualities of leadership at all.
i always follow ppl i project. i cant be independant. i am so weak. i really hate it.
i TRYING to be strong from that DAY ONWARDS. A DAY I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER.
i love the times spend in ite. but time passed so fast. it gonna end soon. and we gonna lost contact .
it always like that. everyone have their own life to live. i have no right to control.
that day, already know this life is very complicated. it not what u think. it differet
everyone have it own views. and have their right to do what they want. after this upcoming exam,
i will be going attentment for 2months plus. i gonna missed schooling =(
after ite, when should i go next? poly/work? i really have to decide on my own.
i am so happy everyone have it aims. but my aims always keep on changing.
my road infront is so blur now. i am 19 already. not young anyone. it time for me
to think now....

2010-08-27T14:06:00.000+08:00

on wednesday,we went to vann's house. we went to her house to complete the bad project. reaching her house around 2pm . we brought a cake for snack ar.. lol! it not anyone birthday but as if we go her house to open party ar...funny! after that. while waiting for visual studio to be download , we do our study guide . around dinner, we order candian 2 for 1 pizza. haha i love pizza!!!yum....yummm...yummy!fianlly , around 10pm+ then finsih downloading.. can u imagine it.... 8h+++ >.<
on thurs, we went to tamp library. erm so sorry didnt help much either on the bad project. =) i was so siao in complete in my study guide. lol. today i hope i can complete it=)
jia you!

CLASS BBQ on 20th august!=)

2010-08-22T12:02:00.005+08:00

last friday, we went to mrs Perlyn's house for class bbq! but sad not all came for the class bbq. it was so fun! everyone was so crazy snapping photo. haha!=)maybe i skip my lunch that why when i went there, i was busying eating and serving them with foods .waitness for the day=) haha! i love my class that full of laughter and joke! it make my day! argh that more photo in pei ling camera! =)
♥♥♥




one look from a fren. she know i having some problem in heart.

2010-08-19T22:40:00.001+08:00
ya right. sitting in the bus listening to music and looking out the window.i really seriously feel like crying but holding on. it just only that moment that i feel like crying. family problem make me really very tired. whatever i do got scolding. almost everyday i get scolding. i seriously really feel like screaming back. A REAL LOUD ONE . but i cant. he my father at the end. let it be. i will tolerate it no matter what. mummy is having stress. she thinking of commit sucide. it really shocking to heard that. i hope father wont shout to anyone. let everyone stay peaceful everyday please .i really hope family is a really peaceful and really understand everyone. after all, i love u all!

today is the last day of yog volunteer. i enjoy alot with the ppl there and + classmates. haha! saw meryl and lyo. they all so popular. it get so hard to take photo with them. managed to get a snap with ^_^. today didnt went out to see the match. =( all place that can see the match are blocked so we end up sit at the container to chit-chat. haha taking photo like siao! spam ar! haha funny sia la! didnt know my classmates can be very bond at times if we want^_^

nomatter what, a day is filled with thing that make me happy! who? MY FRENS=)

2010-08-16T22:40:00.002+08:00

2010-08-14T23:51:00.000+08:00
today,early in morning wake up just to go peace centre for my foods hygenic course. lol it was okay but abit bored. haha! my lunch was around 12pm. was supposely to met joelle for lunch but she late. and i have 1hours break only so told her not to come.i went to mac to settle my lunch. we have MCQ and oral. MCQ was ok and oral was ok too. haha!thanks to vann ,joelle and celia for guiding me where the peace centre that day^_^

i was pretty affected by those two words i saw in facebook. haiz...led me back to some thing. haiz forget it. ppl will always say u wrong coz they do not know what actually happen. forget it. it over and i wont want to think about it anymore. let time passed by and i will feel better.
NOONE IS PERFECT.THAT IT.
tmr is yog actual day. i gonna enjoy it with u my fellow classmate^_^ excited sia la until i cant sleep yet.

This weeks

2010-08-12T23:08:00.002+08:00
monday was a public holiday. i went to work sat,sun plus monday. argh so angry at myself. i lost the spec i brought not long ago. argh ! it was the time for me to eat lunch. i went to eat. normally i will take out my spec when i eat. i put my spec in my pocket. argh dam. when i ate finish. i realised my spec is gone. went around looking at the floor to search my spec. o man. walk around the round market for two round. lol! o ask the auntie. auntie said:" i picked one spec and give the uncle." o man... i asked where that uncle? the uncle is gone. argh my spec gone case like that. what a typical uncle ar. not your spec why u take>.< alomost got it back if that uncle return to the auntie. nevermind it my careless. i am so agitated at myself. mum say me too. working for 4 days and the salary is to buy new spec. coz it my fault losing the spec so i have to pay it fully myself. >.<
next time i will be more careful=)
tues, went to kovan with vann,joelle to make my new spec=) thanks girls! it was last minute but u girls agree to accompany me go. really do appreciated alot. i decided to do the same design with the previous one but different colour=) a black spec! haha! same price.$140. haiz $140 gone in my banks. o ya. i am so happy that soon we going to the st john island marine with the class and zoo with my frens=)i was so excited for it! but everyday is filled with happy and sad too. when i reached home, it around 11pm. daddy changed the lock. i cant go in the home. he was so agitated and scream. what time le? why so late. i say go do spec. he wont listen to me. he scream and scream. i am seriously tired of listen to it foryears. i went to the staircase and sit down. i feel so tired. i feel so scared standing outside. reflect on myself and feel so tired. i sat there sliently with tears. mum came and help me. scream at father enough le. she went out and told me go in. i told heri am so tired. i wont want everyday go home to see father scold at me with all screaming. i really tired. went in the house and went to bed with tears. father stopped his screaming.
wed, first period of sch was supposely to be S&W. i totally nomood in particating in it. went to sch late and see some of them playing s&w. i sat down listen to music. totally dont want talk to anyone. was very hurt by yesterday. finally ,cher ended the S&W lesson. something happen that day and really thanks girls for being there for me.i really do appreciated. i will overcome it!=)
today, it was pretty fun. 11 of us enjoying ourself by playing true or dare. haha it was so funny. after that, went walking to mac at ECP. omg it was so far. haha sweating until we reached the mac to eat!=)after that, amanda went off=) after that, pei ling and quan yi rent the skating. zhao hai, joelle, celia and me rent the two person bicycle. haha! vann rent a very cute bicycle^_^ zhao hai and joelle ride one .celia and i rent one too. i was so scared that i will make celia injure>.< but overall this time round cycle with her make her feel more secure le! see them skating was os funny. vann ,nicholas, pei ling, quan yi and zhao hai take turn try the skating. i t was not easy. u need to balance. i see them so pervenence!=) haha!overall , it was FUN and we all enjoy alot. haha! thanks to u all make my days filled with happy happy!=) thanks all!

tears

2010-08-11T07:52:00.001+08:00
am i really very not good daughter? i really feel very tired coz u alway scold me. nomatter what i do. i dont get any praise but scolding from you. sometime i really dont feel like going home. it make me so tired. totally break down yesterday night after sth happen. i feel so hurt.

seriously so agitated now...

2010-08-07T14:35:00.000+08:00
Seriously i so agitated now. wth is happeniing.showing attiude and screaming to all of us. wtf is wrong with u?
i have been treated like that when i was young. wtf. i really cant stand it anymore. i really dont like u to show this stupid attitude when i come home so tired. it make so FUCKING PISSED OFF. u know. i will be ok for the first itme.. but if u contiue to show me this stupid attitude. i cant stand it anymore. if u want me to respect u. please ask yourself did u respect me first. even a frens who did that to me. atleast at the end they did say sorry. but u. u did not. wth? i really dont like that way u treat all of us. i really SICK OF IT.
i got my problem to solve.come home i only gain screaming and attitude from u. i seriously feel like crying and screaming..sometime. everyone got it own problem . i have it too please. please understand.i really hope those screaming and attitude can stop. i want PEACE. peace to relax and enjoy .

feeling

2010-08-06T09:10:00.000+08:00
nowaday, things kept on appear in my mind. someday i just have to accept it.
everyone have different personatilies. that why different ppl will tend to crash until.if both ppl will tiliang each other. then it will be better. something i may not want it to happen. but something just mend to like that. there noting i can do. i do hope i can help a part. but i cant.

i really feel affected sometime. i trying to control. i want to be neutral to everything. i dont want anyone to get hurt. sometime i really hope every ppl wil be able to be together but i know it impossbie. all i can say is everyone is imperfect. it how u see the ppl. but i always respect the person. nomatter what u do, i still treat u as a fren.

if time passby , it will solve it. i hope so. i feel sad sometime when i see thing end up worse.
SMILE JIA YI=) MOVE ON!

runnynose

2010-08-04T23:15:00.000+08:00
wow. yesterday was the worse day ar.. runnynose non-stop...use alot of tissue...lol! buy tissue from coop and seng city... lol! just for the sick to buy tissue. finally, today went to see private clinic.wow i waited for 1h+ . finally it my turn. haha!=) doctor say my throat is too heaty..tooked my medicine and went to buy my lunch. got a MC from doctor.but i dont want to miss my DBA revision . i not really that sick so i still want to go sch =)

After that, we went to redhill to get our YOG passes and uniform. omg the pant is so long.the pants was suppose can make it a short pant. but mine cant.coz only size 30 above then got a zip to make it shorter..argh sad=(i love the visa card! haha! the passes is big ar! haha! after that, i wnet home striaght. cozi sick so if i late home comfirm papa scold..>.<

i feel so helpless when i cant help at all. it get worse behind the end. i really want to make it better. dont want thing to get worse. i will feel sad if it happen. many thing happen everyday behind the end. haiz.... cant u all feel it?T-T if it happen, all i can say is too accept it.

if time would really solve it. i hope it will.

Acceptance, understanding and focus is all i need

2010-08-01T00:14:00.000+08:00
remember i put this in my status in fb.
Acceptance-> accept who i am. i am a imperfect person. noone is perfect too. my expression's may have let
u all think i this...or other. but ask me before u predict it.=)
understanding-> please understand why sometime i tend to be like that. i may be stress somehow due to sth. it just need some time to pass and it will ok.
In life,quarrel will occur le.every ppl will have different view, different personatilies. it how u see it. understand every person of why he/she react like this. it may not be what u thinking of.
focus->time to focus on my study le. test/practical + exma is coming soon.... jia you !

i hope frens wont take grudge. put down all the gudge and think of the good memories of u with your frens=)

YOG rehearsal!

2010-07-31T22:20:00.006+08:00
Finally it blogging! A weeks didnt blog. starting to get lazy.
yesterday ,i am so happy coz go yog rehearsal!
After sch, went to eat my lunch with amanda,pei ling and joelle at cafe 2=). so qiao. saw IVY GOH ! haha!=)Then, she join us for lunch. haha so nice of her still so fast tag us in fb .LOL! so efficient! can see she quite enjoy ar.haha!hope can meet lunch/dinner next two weeks ba.
After that, joelle came to my house. haha =) my house abit messy. @_@ LOL! we were chit-chatting while waiting for time passed. Around 3pm+, We already prepared. i was so hungry so we went tamp walk walk ! .joelle and i went to tamp1 frolick yogurt eat! we brought the bigger cup .mango flavoured one with two topping! i really so in love with FROLICK YOGURT !DAM NICE=D After finishing the first cup, i still wanted another cup but joelle say going to meet salleh ar. haha! yalor! We went to bedok platform to meet salleh. haha! funny him leh. was suppose to meet him at 5pm. but he still on the way at 5pm. haha! =) salleh called he will be late, told us to tag out first .coz ezlink was minus more money. so joelle and i waited him at bedok mrt outside. during the waiting time, was so boring ar. take out my phone and took some photo with joelle ! haha! WHAT PHONE FOR? CAMERA=)
finally, salleh came! went to cityhall to meet the rest! when we reached cityhall! noone reached yet. so we went to raffle city to shop. haha! saw a tee again.black and white one! haha! after that,went to meet the rest at starbuck! haha! saw pei ling! haha ! went to starbuck to buy DRINK! THANKS TO SALLEH ! GOT DISCOUNT=D Amanda,pei ling, salleh, quan yi, nic, wei liang, zhao hai, wendy and her two frens all reached le. pei ling forgot bring ticket>.< she went rushing home to take her ticket. we went off first and decided to meet her later.MORE STUN ONE is we walked so long road to that place. argh.... walked and walked one round after one round!._.! finally reached our destination!!! omg.. i saw chair and tv. our first reaction is huh? we sit here watch tv! LOL! but after that volunteer explain. oh after eat our dinner, we have to walk to the stage and then he will led us to our seat. o scared me. haha! we each were given a band . we have to wear for a identity .lol! my dinner is hotdog,fish cake with maggi mee + one mineral water + two bread. haha!After dinner, the volunteer led us to the place. Another long road to walk again.while on the way, pei ling came=)haha! finally reach the bay! haha! took a seat and enjoy our rehearsal! it nice man. i love the song they played! more shocking one is there IS SO MANY OF COUNTRIES IN THE WORLD . wow from letter A to Z. WOW! alot lei. everyone was chit-chatting and enjoy the rehearsal! overall it end around 10.45pm+. they decided to eat down to chat. but i have work the next day. so sorry cant accompany u all. joelle and i went off first. more blur one is we dont know where the nearer mrt was? haha! went ask ppl..aiyo. roadsick.......>.<lucky is volunteer show us the was to nearer city hall mrt station. wow mrt alot ppl@_@ was so sleepy already. when i reached tampines interchage, it almost 11.30pm. my last bus is at 11.30pm.phew i caught the last bus and home sweet home=D
i enjoy alot during the rehearsal. thanks to frens=)
will upload the photo at 14 aug=)
hope tmr go yog training will be a fun one. =) hope no a boring one.

2010-07-23T21:26:00.002+08:00

ABOUT "stress"

2010-07-21T20:07:00.000+08:00
teenage years can be exciting and challenging as you may face many changes.
for exmaple, you may have noticed physical and emotional changes occuring.these changes might make you feel stressed and frustrated.
you mae also feel stressed out about your school work or handling relationship with parent and friends.

WHAT IS STRESS?
stress is how your body reacts to changes. your thoughts, feeling and belief about changes in a particular situation can make stress a positive or negative experience.
stress usually comes from:
Examinations
peer pressure
family or personal expectations
relationship
changes in routine

managing stress:
talk to someone you trust eg:your teacher, parents or close friends.

ask for help when you encounter a problem. this is a good step forward if you cannot handle the situation on your own.

plan your time well will help you be more organised. you will feel less tensed and more relaxed, especially when preparing for exams.

find time to reflect alone when you are unhappy, so you can sort out your thoughts.

try walking away from stiuation that is making you stressed. count from 1 to 10 to cool down and then approach the situation again.

i see a BIG change in me for past few years. i cant handle my stress well. i MUST LEARN. jia you jia you jia yi.

haiz

2010-07-19T21:09:00.000+08:00
during my bad lesson ,i dont know why i always have that feeling ofasking ppl question that make them so stress someway.@_@... so scaredto ask ppl@_@ haizyoyo.... ! when i dont mean it too.
u knowtoday i feel so not me at all. when lesson, i feel so tired and notfocus at all. my mind is to sleep. that all. trying my best to focusmyself.

slience break in my door recently. i agree i becaming morequieter. coz i dont find any topic to talk about. or maybe i toochildish somehow. all my topic seem not match u all. sometime i reallyfeel it though i didnt say it. i will try talk more ba. i trying butseem so cold like a air threw away... haha! i not a mature person. seemto be childish then mature. haha! GROW UP LA JIA YI! HAHA! but i feel it eversince weeks that someone is more quieter than me. i that time randomly ask why so quiet. no reply . that person seem different. not as jovial like last time. i cant see the joy in her. she seem troubled in somehow. i hope i can be the listener for her to talk. something just mend not to be say but kept in heart.

tomorrowwill be database lesson, practical coming..... hope i can cope with itcoz i quite blur with it. need help from friends around me. i prettyslow learner.... that need patient for me to absorb. i not like other.in younger age, i cant understand what teacher/tutor is talking. aftertution, the cher still have to one on one to me so i should understand.haha! so jia let.... >.<

LAST WEEK!

2010-07-19T00:35:00.002+08:00

last friday, went to eat aston with joelle and celia^_^. it was great that we found the place. haha! i ate the black pepper chicken!it NICE!I gonna try lemon next time! haha! after that, i went to the family clinci to inject the injection due to handling with foods. lol! it been so longi have injection. it was SO nervous. omg.... doctor was very friendly... he still can joke with us. very fast, injection over. it abit like ant bite. haha .joelle and celia seem to more nervous than me ! haha! after that, went to celia' house and chat. haha! thanks joelle and celia for accompany me!

yesterday, i went out with ivy and pei ling. we went to redhill for the yog. i was not confident in myself. i keep say one stop away but not sure. end up it one stop away! >.< end up, i bring u all to the destination haha.
after that, went to bugis for shopping. i brought a short. L size one haha! the design size small. that why. after that, went around. saw a shoe that i like. $20.90. if i got money comfirm buy. i saw a black and white tee! $40 lei! lol abit exp. haha! >.< no money too..... ! must save money!!! haha. after that, went to eat streamboat that cost only $18. haha! so pathetic sit near the road. i ate alot of hotdog. haha funny is when i sit the fuzhou meatball. the soup in the meatball splash to pei ling. haha funny..... overall, was quite ok though i talk very less. let have more outing next time ba...

sucks day

2010-07-16T00:08:00.000+08:00
what wrong with mummy? why cant she listen to either father, me or sister.why are thing cant be solve in a peaceful manner? why must it be worse?some problem related to my family.....~man....it really sucks man! she is so stubborn in a way..she dont listen to anyone and want it to be her way..when sister told her that she wrong somehow. she became to screaming at sister. she raise her hands and hit sister. pinch her. man make sister cried in her bedroom. man i shouted at her coz i really cant stand it when sister was telling her she was wrong somehow. i was almost another one kana hit by mum. ALMOST! if she hit i think i go my bed show temper le... phew didnt. mum felt very agitated by something and she felt so wei qu. but she always think she right and ppl are wrong. i think both party are wrong. haiz..... mum make the whole house full of sucks astmophere..... father called the other party to let thing solve coz mum want go that party house .i snatched the key from her to stop her . she scream at me. i screamed at her too.. i was telling her to go sleep. she cried infront me. i cried too.it quite heart-broken to see her cry.father was in badmood. screaming on the phone. it really a bad day to see everyone screaming at each other. i went to my bedroom .lying on the bed feeling so sad.... it didnt end .u still can heard the screaming. i went to sleep and wake up at 11pm+. it is peaceful now but thing haven solved. hope grandmother and grandfather can help them to solve all this..

NICE SONG!

2010-07-12T21:09:00.000+08:00
NDP 2010 Theme song!YOG song!i love this ! haha so cute!

felt troubled

2010-07-10T10:56:00.003+08:00
yesterday, i felt so troubled have to choose between go to do spec + yog with joelle and celia. or pei ivy,amanada and pei ling in sch. thought i wanted it to be tgt, it immpossible. at the end, i choose to go with celia and joelle coz i have already told them to pei me in the beginning and they okay.
i really sincerely sorry wor cant pei u all yesterday.
i have being waiting for my spec le. i got alot problem that i cant see the screen. stun... my eyes increased by 50 for both. argh..... i choose a spec near to my skin colour. i really dont like to wear the old spec coz it got alot snatches and plus the rubber at the side have broken. lol! i am a violet person.

jia yi really treated everyone as close friends and love all my frens! it just some problem that i fears of. dont think that way. i really do get take ppl word's in heart. ARGH~ i just hope everyday go sch happy and dont want anything to happen.that my motivation for everyday going to sch ! haha

Post i find it quite meaningful

2010-07-06T23:33:00.007+08:00

reflection

2010-06-30T22:51:00.008+08:00

I choose the road to studying in ite. thought for the past 1 years++. it was up and down. but there were always happy moment in it.i got awesome cher that care for whole class. i got awesome friends too but there are many quarrels. friends get tired. true, i seriously tired.my main aim is to be happy and got into poly. so why not, let it be happy. A big quarrel occur, it lasted for few weeks. ya she right. i always quarrel, show attitude/temper. i am like that. i really dont want to hurt anyone. dont want to make the surrounding tired. friends are tired too. i am tired too. i got so affected by you all coz i too care friends. A care got a limitation. i care over and get senitive over thing.

Before the first weeks of holiday start, i feel so stress and almost cry everyday for my mistake i make, for thinking of leaving the group, for blaming myself. it just doesnt seem right at all. i feel so helpless and useless. thought i cry alot, but i learn something too. i learn something .i learn to forgive and forget the quarrel. now thinking back, i have no hard feeling now. i feel more relax.

People do come in your life and walked away. it really occur in my life. my grandpa, grandma, my big aunt , other people have walked away in my life. at that moment, i always feel utterly sad. i lost someone that are a respect to me. i attend so many funeral that i so scared of going anymore. i really fear of see ppl passed away. how would it feel when u lost someone u close to. i think it really heartbroken.when i see so many ppl die. i feel so haiz.why ppl have to passed away. but that what life are. ppl born and ppl passed away. it like a cycle.

After all this happen, i really learn to smile when i sorrow or wheary. when u are sad, always do remember to smile coz there alwayss tomorrow. now, i always tell myself this. coz your life will be worthlive for.

Got once, i go see god's message. message:that no matter how good you try to be to others, you will occasionally hurt them. Forgive yourself for it. The same will happen with them. Forgive them for it.ya right. i really agree to it.quarrels?!?! now it time to slow down and think why ? when goes wrong? why quarrel always happen. i found the answer. the answer is myself.

i got alot problem i have overcome in ahead. i got the fears i got to overcome. i got my dreams to achieve. one day, i want to be like a strong tree and overcome all the fears that hidden in my heart. when wind blows,i am still standing there.

                                                   looking at this leaf. there still hope in it. i will hold
                                                on to the hope that one day. i will overcome all
                                                                                    the fears .jia you♥♥♥


this song encourage me

2010-06-29T22:48:00.001+08:00

2010-06-24T18:10:00.002+08:00
recently, being listening to GLEE song...found this 3 awesome song! NICE NICE!listen to it!

I SAW RAINBOW TODAY!!!

2010-06-22T20:10:00.000+08:00
let listen to this song...it really NICE. HOPE MY DREAM COME TRUE!*LYRICS*Somewhere over the rainbow, way up highThere's a land that I dreamed of onceIn a lullaby....Oh Somewhere over the rainbow,Skies are blue and the dreams that you dare to dreamreally do come true....Oh Someday I'll wish upon a starAnd wake up where the clouds are farBehind.. me..Where troubles melt, like lemon dropsHigh above the chimney topsThat's where you'll find.. meOh Somewhere over the rainbowBlue birds flyBirds fly over the rainbowWhy then Oh Why can't I??I.........

haiz so scared to see ppl die

2010-06-15T14:30:00.000+08:00
yesterday went to CGH. alot ppl went there to see my big aunt. she is quite ok the past few day but now i see her in bed breathing so tough. doctor also say no use le.doctor pull all the tube off her and told us to let her go off if she want.doctor so useless one ar. doctor say cant find any illness. then why her urine is red one. why her leg is smollen. there should be some reason out of it.big aunt is only 52 years old. grandma should be the one really upset ba. where got white ppl send black ppl. haiz...other aunt say grandma cry.big aunt children is ah boy. ah boy so unfillal. her mother is in the hospital and yet he can go work.wth is that? for the past few years, ah gong,ah ma, other ppl, ah yi's daughter all passed away.i dont konw attend how many funeral le. i dont want to see another one.i just so scared of see ppl die. haiz why do ppl have to die. see those ppl cry really make me feel like crying too.

=)

2010-05-29T21:46:00.000+08:00
this weekend nth much also. i went to work at mum there to help coz lack of ppl. erm will be working during weekend until 13june . haha atleast can earn some allowance for myself. i want to buy a new spec. haha!
holiday is coming soon. next week,i want to save money ! haha! holdiay coming and hope to have outing with frens. haha if not i will be rotting at home study? LOL!=) maybe?
i hate my com. lol! so lag . so slow. yet DVD/CD drive spoilt. wanna to try the games disc. end up it didnt detect. aiyo..cant try playing the game.
was thinking if want to change my hairstyle...thinking of rebond my hair? haha! maybe la not sure...

TIRED

2010-05-24T10:54:00.001+08:00
super tired now. just want my bed now .   aiyo now i having bad lesson. o man. i dont know why suddenly i said cher explanation is very poor. doesnt mean it in that way. just came up of my mouth. aiyo>.< psps. hope everyone would able to live their life happy rather then sad.
life is so unpredictable. it can be up and down without u even notice. it can happen so suddenly. wasnt it?

last sat, i went to JB. JB trip was ok ok . abit bored but overall okok. i didnt talk much either. shouldnt find topic to talk about. i am just like a sotong that day. we went there to eat ba kut teh. o man .it nice. if next time i got a chance to go there. i want go eat again. i love the drink. i dont know what that call. but it got jelly in it!  After that, we went to holiday plaza . i brought a tee. haha!After that, we went back to city plaza to shop awhile and went back to custom ler.

emotional now!

2010-05-16T22:53:00.000+08:00
lying at the bed and realised how much thing have changed.
i lost the frens i treasure,i care and trust. ppl come and go.

A chat with mummy and sister!

2010-05-12T20:56:00.001+08:00
On the way walking home, i suddenly thought of this. Different charactor will have different view and so it result in different understanding of each other. yay it true. i chat with my sister about the life. i always dont understand why something just mend to be like that. for example, why some ppl like to said other ppl bad thing but do that person realised that if u were the person. how would u feel? how would u react if u were the person being say? ya it is unavoidable coz that what life are. i always admire those ppl that should really accept those negative words from other and move on like normal. but i on the way learning . i twice met before this situation and i was the one that heard/see it. it true it hurt . i dont blame them but i glad i knew it at last rather being acting nth happen. i am the person who will glad if u said the truth to me . jie told me that the life. the life is very "xian shi".
It true that everyone have different view and sometime it might end up misunderstanding. why cant ppl just try to understand each other view but instead u just support on yours view. everyone view is differ so that no right or wrong. maybe it the nature of human reaction?
while i was eating dinner, mummy asked me you want to go poly? i said i want go poly. but i know father wont want me go poly coz he always shouted " after studying finish ite , go work la". i told mummy this and found out it not father wont let me go poly. It is because father got one period of time see me keep come back home late. he dont like coz he feel am i go ite for study or play? but i told mother that recently i have come back home early. mother told me if father wont let u go poly, then u go work first.ya maybe.i always have a feeling that father hate/dislike me coz he always shouted at me for noting and shouted at me whe he in badmood. i dont understand why ppl just should not stand at each other ppl's view and think.
i have being trying my best to study to score well so to go poly. i study not for anyone but for myself. i want a diploma .i want to study to learn more. furthermore, i realised everytime ppl ask me what your job for furture? my answer is dont know. i dont know what my actual interest are.
i am not clever at all .i also learn to improve my weakness. i hope to learn more from other and be a useful person. hope one day i should able to find my interest .
i saying this not becuase of anything. erm i maybe are the one of them inside but i want to type my views here.
i am sorry if i offence you .

happy mother's day to all mummy!=D

2010-05-09T21:13:00.000+08:00
Last week, i discuss with my sister why not we treat mummy eat dinner on mother's day. my piggy bank so pathetic left $20.sister said ok ! plus sister's $20 equal $40!i asked bro got saving ma.he said dont have.$2 want?._.! Around 6pm, we went down to cofffe shop to eat dinner. it being so long one family sit down to eat. =D We order clay tofu, vegetable +mushroom, fish slices soup , chicken wing ,french fries and mango chicken! OMG nice nice! $40 can eat so much! haha so worth=)
Mummy have being the one who give birth to me. The one scold or hit me. The one that dote on me. The one cook foods to me.The one who care for me.The one quarrel with me. The one take tolerate my temper. The one who provide me to study. The one always take care of me when i get sick.i wanted to said
HAPPY MOTHER DAY TO YOU MUMMY!=)

sometime something just doesnt seem right...

2010-05-08T09:55:00.002+08:00
sometime i just felt:
i begin to talk lesser and lesser.
lastime i will talk more but now, when there topic to talk then i talk.
i begin to be in my "mini games" world when i got bored.
recently, i into mini games in i touch or handphone.
i begin to be stand at other views .when thing happen, i will stand at both views by not siding anyone of them.
i begin to be bad-tempered.
i show my temper when i get stressed
i begin to be very stress easily.
my module is tough sometime.when i am a slow learner.i need time to slowly absorb what i learn.
i begin to get frustrated so easily
i get frustrated when i kept on figure out the question how to do but end up u did not get the final answer.
sometime i begin to be a boring person .
i begin to dislike ppl who compare and compare.my father compare me to sister and brother. i felt so insulting .it was early in the morning he shouted and said that.u know i wanted to wake up and shouted back but i know if i shout more.he shout even more so i went to sleep.
i begin to not to take the first inititive to talk to ppl.
i begin to feel so helpless sometime
i begin to get hard to open up to frens
i begin to be mean in somehow.

i begin to be" fierece ba"
i reaslied sometime when i answer their question ,they said why u so fierce. or maybe my tone ba?

i should slowly change the negative of me ba.

SONG!

2010-05-03T23:19:00.001+08:00
There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some bitter endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo,
Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
Life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.
There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,
I never should've taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.
And all the things that break you,
Are all the things that make you strong,
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone,
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all,
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Lessons learned.

FRUSTRATION?!?!?!?WHY?

2010-04-28T21:02:00.000+08:00
Frustration is a common emotional response to opposition. Related to anger and disappointment, it arises from the perceived resistance to the fulfillment of individual will. The greater the obstruction, and the greater the will, the more the frustration is likely to be. Causes of frustration may be internal or external. In people, internal frustration may arise from challenges in fulfilling personal goals and desires, instinctual drives and needs, or dealing with perceived deficiencies, such as a lack of confidence or fear of social situations. Conflict can also be an internal source of frustration; when one has competing goals that interfere with one another, it can create cognitive dissonance. External causes of frustration involve conditions outside an individual, such as a blocked road or a difficult task. While coping with frustration, some individuals may engage in passive-aggressive behavior, making it difficult to identify the original cause(s) of their frustration, as the responses are indirect. A more direct, and common response, is a propensity towards aggression.[1]Contents * 1 Causes * 2 Symptoms * 3 Examples * 4 References[edit] CausesTo the individual experiencing frustration, the emotion is usually attributed to external factors which are beyond their control. Although mild frustration due to internal factors (e.g. laziness, lack of effort) is often a positive force (inspiring motivation), it is more often than not a perceived uncontrolled problem that instigates more severe, and perhaps pathological, frustration. An individual suffering from pathological frustration will often feel powerless to change the situation they are in, leading to frustration and, if left uncontrolled, further anger.Frustration can be a result of blocking motivated behavior. An individual may react in several different ways. He/She may respond with rational problem-solving methods to overcome the barrier. Failing in this, he/she may become frustrated and behave irrationally. An example of blockage of motivational energy would be the case of a worker who wants time off to go fishing but is denied permission by his/her supervisor. Another example would be the executive who wants a promotion but finds he/she lacks certain qualifications. If, in these cases, an appeal to reason does not succeed in reducing the barrier or in developing some reasonable alternative approach, the frustrated individual may resort to less adaptive methods of trying to reach the goal. He/She may, for example, attack the barrier physically or verbally or both.[edit] SymptomsFrustration can be considered a problem-response behavior, and can have a number of effects, depending on the mental health of the individual. In positive cases, this frustration will build until a level that is too great for the individual to contend with, and thus produce action directed at solving the inherent problem. In negative cases, however, the individual may perceive the source of frustration to be outside of their control, and thus the frustration will continue to build, leading eventually to further problematic behavior (e.g. violent reaction).Stubborn refusal to respond to new conditions affecting the goal, such as removal or modification of the barrier, sometimes occurs. As pointed out by Brown, severe punishment may cause individuals to continue nonadaptive behavior blindly: “Either it may have an effect opposite to that of reward and as such, discourage the repetition of the act, or, by functioning as a frustrating agent, it may lead to fixation and the other symptoms of frustration as well. It follows that punishment is a dangerous tool, since it often has effects which are entirely the opposite of those desired” [2].[edit] Examples This section may contain original research. Please improve it by verifying the claims made and adding references. Statements consisting only of original research may be removed. More details may be available on the talk page. (November 2009)The worker who is refused time off to go fishing may "cuss out" his supervisor to his face or behind his back. If he is sufficiently aroused, he may strike out at him with his fists or with the nearest weapon. If the supervisor is not present or the worker's fear of the consequences of direct attack is stronger than his desire to attack, he may transfer his aggression to someone or something else. Taking his frustration out on his family or on some object like his car or his equipment are typical ways of transferring aggression. Another "solution" to frustration is regressive behavior — becoming childish or reverting to earlier and more primitive ways of coping with the goal barrier. Throwing a temper tantrum, bursting into tears, or sulking are examples of regression. Wearing a long face and a worried look are other signs of this method of dealing with frustration.I NOW KNOW WHY I SO FRUSTRATED COZ OF ALL THIS BIT BY BIT! HAIZ!-.-

BAD TERRIBLE DAY FOR ME!

2010-04-27T19:08:00.002+08:00
end up,i undelete my blog...just fEEL like typing sth ...it get so hard now...i not like what i am now..!at first, i delete this blog coz i want to forget everything but it end up i keep alot of thing in my heart. i dont know what on earth happen! after grandma passed away...bad thing seem to occur! haiz........ i miss my ah ma!!!wanna to treasure my family but found out sth that is quite sad.At home, everyone is sick! haiz! why nowaday i so frustrated ?when i at sch, i see who also get very frustrated! i see this and that.i just felt so haiz! i want to shout but haiz! sorry if today i show u all temper coz i just doesnt in the mood! haiz....such a terrible day today!!! monday , bad lesson worse of all! asshole! i dont understand at first. it get so frustrated when i dont know what to do the assignment~ haiz! sometime i get really frustrated and can cry very easily. haiz.... hope thursday BAD lesson would be better>.

许愿树

2010-04-18T21:45:00.001+08:00

Realised

2010-04-16T17:28:00.008+08:00

have u wonder that u will
never know a person how they feel
when they dont speak out
when i didnt ask
when i left her/him aside
when i didnt care about her/him
when i dont know how to ask but just to sms
when i didnt try
when i didnt stand at her/him views

just being random!=)

It take more than caring
To be a real friends;
The nature of Friendship
Requires a blend
Of warmest compassion
And love deep and true
To reach and to comfort
The way that you do
Because i cna see
That your kind of friendship
Is priceless to me .

When i get back my previous resultslip. got abit scared. i wonder if my score can go poly.i heard teacher said some ppl get 3.5++ also cant go poly .haiz .my wishes is to go poly. i dont want to disappointed my parent.actually, i not condifent in myself coz i will comfirm with other ppl. i slow in learning too .thanks to my classmates helping me on study. THANKS=)haiz...i see facebook. all can go poly .i so happy for them. this second years is quite important for me.I want to work hard .dont want thing to affect me anymore.

First week !

2010-04-14T20:13:00.003+08:00
For Monday and tuesday,i went to help out in bl for the april orientation.it was not that easy.but overall was quite ok. thanks to the bl who help me along=)Today, i went to sch as per normal. First period was S&W !my favourite=). it PE! i was slightly late but end up still managed to take height and weight tgt as a class.=)haha! jia yi grow abit taller. after that,we went to gym! haha quite fun.i try out on those differ machine. haha! machine sound wrong.after that, the whole class went to cafe 2 to eat lunch. my appetite getting smaller now which i dont know also. maybe drink too much water.haha!After that, we went to ETD lesson. No exams!No attendment!No test!, No theory lesson for today!, got attendance bonus but got a project!!!After one month of holiday, i seem to be a different person. i see alot Things that reflect me. If it was my last time me, if a person said me .i will think and hurt.but for now, even a person said me. i will not think but try to rest my mind and awhile it will be ok. i will accepted it and apologise to the person even i dont know it is wrong or correct. just felt this way is better someway. haha!Another thing is if last time of me, a friend show small temper.i will give attitude and said why like that. but for now i try to cheer my friend and try to help them. it so different now . i dont know if u all notice it. For my feeling now, i just feel i miss those day whereby all my close friends are tgt. but for now i dont know what to do but just let it be natural. =DBE LIKE THIS SONG INSIDE!

Last day of funeral!

2010-04-10T22:59:00.001+08:00
On friday,i went over to grandma's house to stay overnight. coz the next day have to wake up very early. i went home after my job.it was so rushed coz i have to reach the funeral before 5pm.when i reach home,brother is not back.i call his handphone.worse of all.i sms+ call him so many time.he didnt reply me..lol! end up i sms vulgar to him. my sis also call him but he didnt reply.omg....it already 4pm+ still not yet back...make my sis and i very pissed off.finally,he call and i picked up the call.i shouted at him.dont know why my temper seem to became worse nowaday.haiz..my sis also lecture me about my temper.i told her i cant control nowaday. really not in a mood.i get very agitated nowaday.haiz.want to control it but it end up burst out.my sis was so fed up and call father.father said dont wait for hbro .we go grandma's house first.end up,my bro call and said he is on the way home. it already 5pm+. my sis very fed up by my bro and we went off.coz my sis dont wanna wait for him.end up,we went off and walked to the busstop.but,i told sis want to wait for bro? sis stop forawhile and call back home.bro told us to wait for him and take taxi to grandma's house.end up, we waited for him and went to grandma's house tgt. ._.! When we reached grandma's funeral, we changed our clothes and went for chanting. it take few hours. i realised my knees abit weak. i bend down awhile and i felt so tired. after chanting.we went to eat our dinner .after that, we went to help ah gu to do sth. it was 12am+ .brother dont want to stay over and want to go home. so troublesome. end up, father have to drive my bro home. it was the first time my bro sit my father's motor.aiya, i miss the part that my bro sit on my father's bike. coz mother said the way he sit is very funny.after that,my sis and i went up to grandma's house to bath and slept aroumd 1.30am+ .my sis and i slept in the living room.the rest of my cousin went down to the funeral and sleep. it kinda werid to sleep in the living room coz there alot of people keep walked pass us. i wake up around 6.30am. so early right? ._.!I went to brush my teeth and went back to my sleep again.LOL! super tired. i realised the first day i sleep at other places .i cant sleep well. i will keep wake up and sleep again. Around 10am+, we went down the funeral for chanting . around 1.30pm, we went to the cemetery. i realised that grand father's cemetary is so near grandma's cemetary.it just a short distance away. after that, we went back to grandma's house around 5pm+. the funeral is finally over. when i went home, my mother also lecture me about my temper. i also dont know what wrong with me.i hope i dont show my temper to my frens. gonna control it.

Tired

2010-04-08T23:42:00.000+08:00
i am so damn tired now. it really prove it...when i went to the funeral.i wanna hit my brother but end up hit my cousin. i feeling up and down nowaday.infront of u all,i seem ok.but when i went to funeral, my temper went bad and sometime i feel like crying but i hold it .everytime i see the ppl chanting,i stared at grandma's photo and feel like crying.it remind me of the past.haiz...sch reopen soon and i hope i can have one more week to rest at home.but it the fact that few more day sch gonna reopen.gonna spend my last day of holiday to rest.

A last smile i got from her...

2010-04-06T09:36:00.004+08:00
yesterday,The phone rang at around 12am+.it was from one of the ah gu.mummy picked up the call. ah gu was telling mummy that grandma was in serious condition.After that, father was abit frustrated and said "so late ler go hospital...u tmr got work lei....dont go."mummy dont know what to said and went to toilet.i told her if u want go ,i accompany u. she looked confused.After that,both of them was shouting.i went out the bedroom and told father.of course la is mummy's mother that why she want to go.End up mummy didnt go hospital.The phone rang again.this time round father picked up the call.she told ah gu that mummy is not coming down and the reason why.end up,i went to sleep again.they two was like in a debate in the bedroom.._.! Around 1am+ ,the phone rang.this time was really very serious ler....grandma passed away.After that,i lie at my bed.i cant sleep.it like around 2am+.my jie jie cant sleep too.she so random and said where did grandma go after that?i answer heaven.
hope she gonna be allright! i rewind and think back eversince the first visit to hospital ,that was the last smile i got from her.i will always remember it my ah ma!i seem to be a bad person coz i only visit her for once.sorry.

i found this song last time .it was quite old.but i find it meaningful.

Have you ever been hurt so bad
That you thought that you would die
Have your had to hold back tears
When you just wanted to cry
Have you ever had to hear the truth
And try to keep a smile
Have you ever had so much to say
That you just ran out of time
Nothing hurts more than when you're saying goodbye
You're left feeling lonely with pain you feel inside
The heart keeps aching and you feel a little fragile
Cause nothing hurts, nothing hurts, like goodbye
Ever wish you can turn back time
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And live your life again
Have you ever wanted one more chancevTo right all your regrets
Wish the rain could was away tears
And wash away the hurt
Cause pushing thoughts to the back of your head
It doesn't seem to work
Nothing hurts more than when you're saying goodbye
Your heart keeps breaking and you feel a little fragile
Cause nothing hurts, no nothing hurts, like goodbye

Like goodbye

goodbye ah ma!<3

Memories!=)

2010-04-01T01:19:00.006+08:00
Time fly so fast! one weeks more and my holiday gonna end.Second years of ITE is arriving soon.i not really excited about it because there JAVA.The module that i will stress at T_T. After first years of studying in ITE,i realised ALOT of thing.i learn alot too.Even though the first year seem to be Up and DoWn but i still enjoyed it.i never regret to come ITE.i lucky to be in PB0904K because that where i met alot of nice classmates.haha!=)
i still remember the first day coming to ite,the first i met is celia.we will always keep laughing for dont konw what reason.haha! that was the memorable time. after that,i think i knew ivy and joelle.they two know each other before hand ler but haha i also forgot how i met them.slowly i met vann too. and slowly the rest of the class.haha!
o..i still remember the first outing with celia,ivy and joelle is KBOX.haha!that time was quite fun even though i didnt know each other that well.but was quite fun and i remember we even took a photo .i still remember they all dont believe me i wear skinny jeans..haha! i got so song meh?ARGH>.< haha!
I miss level 3 of IT block whereby there a foods stall. wahahaha! 5 of us always go down there during our break to enjoy our breakfast!haha!
Still remember we always do library duty...we always meet each other at the near library chair.No matter who late,we were wait for each there and go in tgt.haha!
The first birthday was joelle au.i remember it was at kbox.we even brought cake with cream only + some decoration on the cake by us.o ya her rabbit bag!haha! cute cute one^_^ haha! Nearby her birthday,she said her bag kana mouse eat....then ivy and i was laughing and even said let the mouse eat bigger so the hole get bigger.haha so bad oh...coz we brought joelle a bag ler.haha! we celebrate her birthday at kbox.o ya i remember that time we went kbox,we even won a jar of coke! haha1 at first i thought is can ler...>.<LOL!i still remember celia and i cut the sponge to make the shape of"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" if i not wrong...the sponge flew all over..haha!that was for joelle au birthday card....
THAT DAY WAS FUN!
The second birthday is ivy. i remember we do a sketchbook for her..haha!A sketchbook full of photo ...and messages...celia so pro..she was the one decorate the pages ....i remember i even go learn how to draw doremon>.< coz i no ideas what to put for the coverpage..haha!...just so suddenly thought of that....i know doremon not that nicely draw but atleast i try my best..haha!i still remember i went around to ask them around the sch to write wishes...i know it so obvious haha! but aiya who care..LOL!=)
erm ya the birthday celebration was at KBOX too..LOL!we brought snowspray! wakkaa dont konw what it call._.....we spary on her...quite fun la..i accidently spray until mouth..lol haha sry ar... after that,we bring her go justacia to eat dinner coz there where all vietnam friends are....o ya her present was bag too.....haha!...
THAT DAY WAS FUN!
The third birthday is MINE!i remember before my birthday ,we went out but i forgot where...vann said she not coming...argh..i was abit disappointed but joking said then we will be firends by today oh..haha! jk=)
but suprise she came..
my birthday celebration no aircon ler....guess what?not kbox ler...it zoo=) quite a good ideas coz even since K1 or K2 i go only..haha !i didnt know they bring me go zoo until i see the bus board...one big words "ZOO"
haha! they pay for my ticket...thanks girls...coz was quite broke at that moment....erm so went to tour around zoo....haha! i remember the photo we took with the parrot!haha!
                                                 ivy,li see, me,joelle,celia=)
                                            haha they even told me to hang it on my neck and tour around the zoo..i did it leh..haha...inside was full of photo and each of them messages=)o ya..and the jar of stars! damn FREAKING love it...haha! i remember i went back home was to unfold all the star that is shiny one...coz that contain message written by the class and vietnam friends...haha! most HAPPY is vann suprise me...haha quite shocked she came for dinner...hahaa!thanks oh! girl! love it! The most memorable birthday celebration i have...ever since i young....my parent dont celebrate my birthday eversince i young...so everytime birthday..it seem noting.....haha!
The forth birthday is celia....o i remember her birthday we fold thousand of swarm....haha so funny is we even fold it during our lesson time...amanda and pei ling even help us fold..haha so nice of them=)i rememeber we even poke hole to each swarm so to put it in the string...haha! we did this at library...haha! after folding,we even have to think of putting it at where....haha! A big box!=) haha! super big ...enough to put books inside lor..haha! wonder how joelle help celia carry home...lol....we brought her two cute cute shirt^^o...ya and make a small book in a shape of ...what that call...haha ._. nvm...i suddenly forget what it call..haha! it was so cute lor...haha!we wnet to toy museum on that day coz celia love soft toy!haha!.....hope she enjoy it...
THAT DAY WAS FUN!
The fifth birthday is vann....her birthday was pretty special..we bake cupcakes cfor her oz she love it!...lol..we even went to rsearch on the ingrediant need to bake cupcakes...that was the time i knew so many thing about baking._. lol! so many different ingrediant that i dont know which is which ...haha! we went to celia house tobake it.....erm we bake until quite late..haha!.....the next day ,we call mr victor to keep for us the box of cupcake..haha!....nice teacher oh!=)went back for normal lesson..until the end....we wnet rushing to light all the cupcakes with candles...and suprise it to vann..haha! sh was happy..next,went to pastamania for dinner.she dont konw we plan whole go pastamania...haha it was a surprise for her...we even give her a voucher for her birthday...
THAT DAY WAS FUN!
i really can remember so many thing oh...suprising right?haha! all of it was the happy one...the sad one have slowly fade away from my mind and keeping the happy one=)
BRAND NEW START OF SECOND YEARS....GONNA ENJOY IT.......STUDY HARD AND HAPPY EVERYDAY=)
love u all my BUDDIES!♥
my longer post sia la !

2010-03-31T00:35:00.001+08:00
why must i always care about how u all thinking ?
i am a asshole!

Hope she gonna be ok and this is the first time i see her smile at me...

2010-03-29T22:46:00.000+08:00
i just back from hospital.
it was the first time i drop tear for my grandma.when mummy called me to move forward to let ah ma see my face.i bend and move forward and said ah ma.i smile at her and said i am jia yi.she smile back.i move backward and few tears fall down my face.hope she gonna be ok .even thought i not close with my grandma but i feel so worried for her. this was the first time i see mummy so rush when she received a call from ah yi. and she was sreaming faster....she even said if didnt see ah ma..it you all fault.i was so shocked.and we went rushing down to hospital to see ah ma.now then i know hospital so troublesome, still need to quence up to register so to get the sticker than can go up visit patient.but one patient can only have 4 visitor.but my jiejie so clever.she told the ppl there my grandma is in DIR.i dont know what that mean.and the ppl called .and we able to go visit ah ma.
when we were going back home,mummy called me to said bye to ah ma who was sleeping .i went forward and touch her hand and said bye ah ma.mummy called me to touch head.i dont dare.it seem to fragile.haha.my ah yi laughed at me.then ah yi said next time,u give birth that u dont carry the baby?i said dont give birth haha!
HOPE U GONNA BE ALLRIGHT! AH MA!=)

2010-03-29T00:25:00.003+08:00

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                                   W705

ALAMAK!which phone should i buy? both look similar .right?haha! let wait for result come out! if result i am saitified ,i buy a better one.>.< my money!

Hope after so many quarrel, we are BEST BUDDIES WE USED TO BE! i promise u i will forgive and forget. i promise u i still jia yi i used to be^_^ i want to be happy! NO MORE TEARS!SO SMILE!♥

The Past Is The Past..... Just Forget It And Move On
the past was yesterday the future is today so enjoy it !♥

Dear my best buddies:
                                 A poems for you. it may not be a poem written by me but i research it!
                             Hope you all saw it!=)
From: jia yi(+1)
Time to sleep ler! night!haha

2010-03-28T20:06:00.003+08:00
For past few days,i have been watching tv at home.Suddenly, i became like a tv freak.haha!I SO SAD I CANT DOWNLOAD A SINGLE GAMES TO PLAY.I WANT TO INSTALL SIM3 BUT C DRIVE NO SPACE.....FROM GB TO MB.ARGH!:(stupid bro dont let me delete his games._.I feel like going out TO BUY HP! HAHA!but dont know which hp i want ._.last friday, joelle and i went for the library meeting! the meeting is about the jan intake and the thing to do for this coming april intake.lol! After that,senior was teaching the jan intake how to wrap books.there was not enough scissor, so it end up joelle and i was chit-chatting.LOL!After that,there was a small birthday celebration but we went off after singing the birthday song. we went to bedok to eat dinner! haha! it being so long i talk to joelle au! Yesterday,i randomly ask my jie.jie u got go fish spa before? jie said got.then i asked how was it? she said the first time your feet went in,it is very disgust coz all the fish suck your feet.imagine? haha! but she said its was ok after a awhile. LOL! i didnt know my jie will go FISH SPA._. HAHA! is that the correct spelling?hAhA

can a friend hug me now?.......

2010-03-25T14:28:00.001+08:00

after one day of rest....i finally come to a decision...i decided to quit ......since all leaving...there no point i stay there..i cant do thing all alone..it will be more stressful.....
i donesnt want this thing to cause friends to quarrel....which i doesnt want it this way....
yesterday...i only double comfirm if u quitting...and that all....no other meaning..and why u said that we asking u to make decision...........and end up u get agitated by words and walked away...............................i didnt went up to chase for u..coz if i chase u will get agitated....which u always said that..so i let u cool down..and i just hope when u ok just talk to me...
i dont know what did i do wrong when i only asking a question.......do u know it always hurt when u walk away....and i all alone.....i so afriad being alone.....the feeling of loneliness..........i cant find anyone to talk about it.....i was so lost......in the busstop......after that.....whiich i dont want to said anymore....

standing at your views...u are stressed up and tired.....u got alot thing to do......so u get agitated easily so its ok......i am sry if said anything wrong..
seriously i not angry at all.....i know u joking...so its ok....if i want to angry...then at that moment i will throw my temper..which i didnt.....
hope u understand.......

A outing with my secondary friends

2010-03-19T21:09:00.000+08:00
Today went to meet jas and trecia at tampines mrt guardian at 12pm....but i wake up late..haha abit late..lol..
we went to buy chocolate for ah woan!haha! and A SUN FLOWER...haha!we even buy a piece of cake for her...! after that,we went to meet her at tampines platform...it been so long to see her...she stilll the one i met in sec life haha!!....we went to marina square justacia to eat our lunch...wahahaha! my favourite place....lol!...

After 4pm ,ah jas have to go off...left me ,trecia and ah jas...aiyo...bored>.<....but end up left ah woan and me watch ALICE IN WONDERLAND movie!....5 STARs!I will never regret watching this show...haha! quite a nice movie....i wont mind to watch it in 3D haha! >.<LOL!
some charactor's photo that act in this movie!

A trip to har par villa

2010-03-19T20:45:00.001+08:00

On tuesday, my friends and i went to har par villa...it was quite interesting...this time round i finally went in the ten court of hell....the ten court of hell show each level of wrong doing and its punishment...which will make you feel uncomforatable...but overall it was quite a good experience.After that,we went to tour around har par villa.the history of the god.haha! thanks girls for going there!some photo taken at there:

I WANT BE STRONG!

2010-03-13T22:23:00.000+08:00
i hope i can be strong...................................................FOR MOST OF THE TIME!.........................................................................................................................................................................why must i be so SERIOUS WITH PPL's WORDS.................................................................................................................................................................WHY....................................MUST IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII?????????................................................................................................................................................WHY CANT I BE STRONG...................................................................................................................................I FEEL SO HAIZ NOW..............................................................................................................................................................................................................................

Relaxing day=)

2010-03-12T00:40:00.000+08:00
Once again..i went out quite late until 12am then reach home..wakaka=)Today...went to Haw par villa....erm so sad the ten court of hell is close at 6pm..i wanna go there explore coz i never go before .....next week wanna go there explore...with OF COURSE...MY CLOSER FRIENDS!=)aiyo....!hahaEven thought i dont have sense of direction but they guide me along...thanks ar=)haha! next week hope to go Haw par villa take alot photo with them!=) it will be fun...

2010-03-09T21:40:00.003+08:00
A song by the drama You're Beautiful ...have watched recently and it a NICE SHOW!!!=)

2010-03-03T10:27:00.001+08:00
A good friend will tell you what you want to hear.
A true friend will always tell the truth.

A good friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A true friend seeks to help you with your problems.

A good friend will be there for you all through school.
A true friend will be there till the day you die.

A good friend will bail you out of prison.
A true friend will be sitting next to you saying
"damn that was fun!".

A good friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A true friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.

A good friend hates it when you call after they've gone to bed.
A true friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A good friend wonders about your romantic history.
A true friend could blackmail you with it.

A good friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A true friend calls you after you had a fight.

A good friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A true friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.

A good friend has never seen you cry.
A true friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A good friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A true friend has their phone numbers in his address book.

A good friend expects you to always be there for them.
A true friend expects to always be there for you.

A good friend is someone you enjoy hanging out with.
A true friend is someone you need.
A RANDOM POST TODAY=)

2010-02-26T01:37:00.001+08:00
today i feel so emotional...lie on bed and got alot thing in mind..so suddenly...
rewind on alot thing happen..last time...keep on rewind and tear really flow down...dont know why..
i think of all the stupid mistake i make and how i wish time can turn back...haha i know it cant...haha

I wish I could see myself from someone else's point of view.stand at their view and think how they think about me? haha comfirm very bad ler...
so random find some thing about Forgive and Forget...

Step 1
Talkit Out: Most of us claim that we will forgive and forget when we havebeen wronged in one way or another. But it is never as easy as itseems. So if you have been wronged and you are feeling personallyviolated from this event then perhaps you need to address the issuesquarely where it lies. Once you have thought through all your problemswith said person or event then you need to sit down and calmly let themhave it! You need to yell, you need to cuss, you need to get every lastthing off your chest so that you can finally say to yourself that youhave said all you need to say on the matter in question.

Step 2
KeepIt to Yourself: After having your rage session the idea will besquarely back in your frontal lobes and you will suddenly feel the urgeto bring this issue up at otherwise inappropriate times. If this isyour partner, whenever their good friends or relatives are around; outat dinner; in the car. While these may seem like completely logicaltimes to berate someone you care about, this attitude is forgetting thewhole deal (forgive and forget) in the first place. Also, brining up anotherwise private matter in public places with random strangers or withclose friends is a pretty bad idea, if for no other reason than becauseno one else knows about it.

Step 3
Yellat Yourself: While the constant urge may strike you to yell and yelland blame yea who wronged, it should be remembered that there had tohave been an underlying impetus, a first instinct, a major issue atplay here. So rather than turning it around and dealing with theincident, why don't you look a little closer at your own involvement inthe event from the get go. Once you have taken responsibility for yourrole in the event, then and only then will you be able to forgive. Nexttime you are in that same situation, you would do wise to not forget.
A random POST TODAY!=)

2010-02-23T00:05:00.002+08:00
i think the only way for me not to think is studY...it get hard sometime...i realised..
i will try not to think anymore...

jia you PB0904K for the upcoming test....exams!=)
ALL THE BEST!

2010-02-18T23:07:00.000+08:00
recently..being having alot stress...
i have alot of thing to do which i didnt do..coz i cant focus and do thing properly..it get worse...
i must give myself a expiry date TMR! i shall be ok and try to take and go.....jia you jia yi!...
no matter what i try...i really hope u girls will understand it..i am sry...

2010-02-17T20:15:00.000+08:00
First time such a terrible day for me...went to sch so feeling tired..at the starting ..it was ok...
i was very angry at u ...it was u who didnt tell me the actual day of eating streamboat...u thought i dont want eat...on other hand u keep said i thought i said today..hello? did u said...anyway it over... when i really super angry i shout at ppl that i care...
i dont feel like talkking to u all coz i not in a mood so please dont ask me what happen ....it make me even worse...i just need a friends just beside me...but u all did not..maybe i too fierce...
i am sry if i shout u all..if u all really mind i shouting at u all...all i can said is nth...
went to a carpark staircase and sit at there...burst out in tear... upset but i try to be strong...
when i on the way home,i was thinking of the past.it take such a long time for me to take and go...to forget..now it need time for me to forget..to take and go..i hate ppl who keep said about the past when it over...it will only make me feel worse than before...
didnt u all realise for the past few weeks..i have beem trying to tiliang everyone of them.....
if u do care for me...u all wont be staying SLIENCE during ENW...
am i very fierce? haiz....
for the next few days...it really take time to auto talk to u..coz i am hurt .

2010-02-04T22:17:00.001+08:00
i really hate my days at home.come home everyone only blame me for this and that and didnt really understand how i feel at all..i so tired...sister shout..brother shout...father and mother shout too...noone console me at all..i am just like a useless person at home.. make me scold until i cry..stupid asshole brother.i cry not becoz i want win coz u keep on shout about the same thing over and over...shout for vulgar.that why i so frustrated by u.
sometime ppl think that i cry in a "show " that dont becoz cry...u win or whatever.this is a way for me to destress..if u dont understnad and that all.
even through in sch, i tend to be very happy person but i really upset about sth.but i will try to be a happy person.if thing doesnt go my way....i shall not force it and shall let it go.=)coz there are still other friends that are there for me..thanks !=)
stress is getting out on me..practical was quite hard but i try my hard to do finish.

My feeling...

2010-02-04T00:35:00.004+08:00

Today seem to be a sad day for me...but i hope it will be allright soon.Human's mindset can be different/similar. but 100% there no ppl that really understand a PERSON 100% FULLY!it get hurt when u two drift off.but i try my way to get u to my path.but it failed.maybe u right.i should have let it go ba.the more i hold,the more hurt i got.i hope we still friends after all.i dont want just a hi and bye friends.i hope u all will able to find me if u all really need help.i know that it get tiring when we keep quarrel.i get tired but i think every friendship do goes by this process.maybe i the cause of all this that led to this.i am sincerely sry about it for not thinking at yours views.i so disappointed when u said that but i really dont know what can i do now.

Even through today it happened sth.but i will find a time to talk to her.to clear our misunderstanding.i suddenly realised i cant understnad a friend as well.i really sry about it.i try my best ot understnad each of them as time goes by.i try to say my view but i got this problem whereby i want to said this but it came out to be so different.that my weakness.my way of talking always get wrong everytime.i hope u girls understand =)everytime thing happened,i tend to be angry at the starting.and while i was alone, i will think back and think at your views.it all coz at that situation,we tend to be strongly in our own views.i am sincerely sry about it.Nomatter what happen..i really do not wish that one day we drift off just like that...i really scared of this.Don't giveup on our friendship!

A song that describle NOW!

2010-02-02T01:01:00.002+08:00
while i was reading on my horoscope...i found this(1 feb 2010)(Much of what is happening for you today, Sagittarius, is happening behind the scenes. Although you may feel very strongly about something, try not to act until you get some sort of "sign" because your intuition is likely to be dead on. Be ready to take responsibility for your accomplishments today. Don't play the victim role today, and don't blame others, fate, the universe or whatever for the difficulties you face from time to time. Every problem has a solution, and the solving of problems is the beginning of real success for you.)i hope it not true.i know i feel it but what can i do?NTH coz i know the more i do ,the more it get worse so maybe just be normal .i Have been quite stressful this few day but i try to smile no matter what...cant really focus during SOA lesson.Try to do my best for what i do.study jia you jia yi!=)thing always happen for what i said....it always get misinterpret..and i also misunderstand by other ppl's words..what shall i do now? i glad it solved!=)Even through i said dont care,but i end up care for them.i shouldn't said i dont care for them coz i still treat them as good like sister even they don;t ..coz i treasure friendship.i shall not said words that i shouldnt do it at all.it all my fault for saying it.A nice song that i found it quite nice that gOt meaning in it!SURVIVE NOW!=)

PE=FUN

2010-01-28T22:47:00.002+08:00
Seriously,not going to care this time round...gonna focus on what i doing now..and aim my goals....what for thinking when other ppl's dOesnt care?HAHA!stupid la !Today ,mummy vann didnt come sch.hope she allright=)During pe lesson,we play tennis...haha! first time playing..so the ball threw anywhere all over the places haha!overall is FUN!=D I Love pe!=)WAKakakakak~!After sch,went to library to meet cher to do some stuff.Even through i am a publicity member,i realised that ivy have been doing most of the stuff.i am so sorry about it coz jia yi is too noob on those stuff but i try to learn=)As a friend, really thanks for not leaving. i really appreciate ALOT!THANKS BUDDY!=DToday was quite angry...but after that cool down..!Thanks to ivy let me fan fan lao shao=)

Overall=SUCCESS

2010-01-25T20:54:00.001+08:00
Today wake up on time and went to sch ! haha i am so happy that joelle actually sms me and said Jia yi..u wake le oh?dont late oh..haha! so glad that she sms me=D coz that what frens do!=) WAKAKAKA! when i reach sch..there was a little issues..but overall hope they fine=)they did a great job of going to two childcare centre...so proud of them!=) they do double JOBS!WOW!As for my group of presentation...overall it was great...i was actually quite nervous and managed to speak out infront of all the classmates..haha! overall,it was a great experience...=)i hope to go childcare and plan activity again..i dont mind at all coz i really learn alot from it.i learn to be more organized.i learn to be more patient.i learn to commuciate with my fellow teammates.i learn to commuciate with the children.i learn to speak out to people.i learn to manage the budget and preparing of things ..for example making of gift..buying of all type of material..it really enjoyable for a one day at childcare centre..it make me feel good when i was there playing with all the children..when i see them smile..it make me happy ...=)HAHA!today also very enjoyable day for me...laughing during SOA lesson...looking at ivy's pri+sec photo and mine..haha ! so funny! CHI DE BAO ZHI DAN AR?WAHAHA!!!!!Anyhow hit me!hahaha! =)

OMG.........so cute!

2010-01-22T21:49:00.001+08:00
omg try listen to this song...this is so CUTE!haha!=D

AWAKEN

2010-01-21T21:09:00.000+08:00
looking through a blog...and found sth that really AWAKE ME!When you can't handle a situation you are in, pause and think, what went wrong. Do not just place blames on other ppl. It was you who couldn't handle the situation. It was you who felt uncomfortable for God knows what ever reason. You do not need to throw judgement and accusation on other people. You would rather throw away a friendship due to your ego and own weakness of self-control? Too bad for you.What I'm trying to say here is that, never take forgranted of your friends..especially when they are your bestest friends! Sometimes you don;'t think before you speak with em just bcos u think ull never lose them and they will be ok with it. People have feelings. Just because they've been sticking with you the whole time, doesnt mean they will tomorrow. Friendships are like plants. You have to water em, feed em..get em enough sun...then they will grow. Don't expect to have a healthy plant by just watering it once every 3 months and go around telling "i have a rare plant at home". It doesnt work that way.So is there such thing as true friendship. I think so. But it's up to you to define it. You can either be a liar to live in a "true friendship" or accept the reality in a true friendship. Your call, mate

A day of relaxing=)

2010-01-20T22:28:00.003+08:00
omg....so happy sia la! today meet my best buddy treciaeven though i only meet her for awhile but we chat non-stop for awhile..haha thanks for the thing u give me!<3 tmr have to meet her to get back my practical books coz her mum forgot to return me one of the book!haha!=) ...haha gonna need it for my case study!wahaha! realised i so long didnt play swing sia la! swing make me feel so relax...feel that all my fan nao all throw out! all gone!=) HAHAH! LIFE GO ON! SO SMILE!WAKAKAKA!=D song for the day! TRUE FRIEND

SONG that describle my feeling...

2010-01-19T21:19:00.003+08:00

A LOST CHILD+ I REALISE...CONTINUED...

2010-01-19T21:06:00.002+08:00
i really feel like shouting up but i Tolerate.it is because ivy + vann already burst..how can i burst at the wrong time?vann and i decided go level 3 to eat....but i saw a girl so familiar..it was ivy..she ran away...i ran towards her and pull her bag..trying to hold her....i was doing to clear misunderstanding but none went in her mind coz she not in the mood....have to ti liang her .finally pull her to vann,but end up she ran away said whatever..i was in a loss..like a loss child..dont know what to do..feel like crying at that time...how i hope i can cut myself into half..to be on both vann+ ivy 'side..care for them. end up,talk to vann and said let ivy cool is better.for 1 hour +,i went back to class .i went to talk to ivy..so cold..nvm...jia yi try again...nah give her see my sec class photo...(hope to make her smile)but i don;t ivy saw my nubby photo..HAHA!...trying my best to make her smile becoz i make vann smile abit..let ivy cool for awhile is best...i listen to mr roger lesson.after awhile,i went back to ask her...but it so cold...nvm failed again...such a useless fren POH JIA yi.am i expecting too much on frens?asked joelle why never call one of us ..by asking where are u?sms also can..this show u care for a fren....you know i always care for all of them..sms,call,ask,do,said..but they didnt..realised so uncomforatable...nvm trying my hard to make frens smile by doing silly thing.but hope ivy and vann is ok...noone ever know how i feel coz i don't know how to said.i feel like crying when mr amos said about thing that remind me of O LEVEL!..cool down and smile..phew tear didnt come odwn.I REALLY HOPE FRIENDS CAN SAID THING SINCERELY/TRUTHFULLY.HOPE FRIENDS CAN SHARE MATTER OUT SO I CAN BE YOUR LISTENER ..HELP TO LOWER YOUR BURDEN..HOPE TO SEE YOUR SMILE......HOPE TO HELP YOU SOLVE....i don't mind to be a person kana scold by you...or show expresion...thing i matter most is when u tell me how you feel..what happen so i can be your listener.....i hope friends are like that coz i DO!=)

A DAY LIKE A LOST CHILD + I REALISE....

2010-01-19T21:04:00.001+08:00
Today really is A NOT MY DAY.....today was very tired...i wnet to SOOA lesson..totaolly in sleepy mode...was not in good mood this morning..
maybe due to some words ......Am i over senitive or what? i don't know...i only reaslied that i don't like friends comparing different way of birthday celebration....IT MY HEART doing it..i doing and planning sincerely....THAT it matter most? or am i expecting too much ? i don't know.....i am only very tired..maybe due to very late sleep ba..have being sudy till 12++ excluded yesterday ba...Noone know how i feel coz i cant talk it out but i rather i said it here...After SOA lesson ,went to BL meeting.... doesn't know i join is right or wrong. i just hope i would learn some skills out of it..that what i matter most and enjoy with my best buddies=)...wanted to learn mot thing and experience....after that ,i went to cafe 1 to find joelle....and celia...i heard ivy said very angry....i thought is becoz i drop your handphone..i am sry about it..not purposely...that why i went to ask u about it......you said BL...i sign a relief..don't know why i feel so uncomforatable..thought you would said it out..and so i can be your listener...to listen.....now then i realised you won't know how to said.......it doesnt matter now and i only hope u ok..i think i expected too much from a firends i care most.after that i went to find chair,vann suddenly walk away.....my first reaction was vann...wait..what happen.trying to pull her back but i failed.finally she told me...i forgot about my bag. LOL! i told vann to stay there. don't go away .i only want to stay at a fren's side to listen and care.i can be a listener listen to you..even a nod also can. i went back to find joelleand celia to take bag..cozi call ivy..she iddnt listen to my call.. i feel so wrong liao. went back to them. i ask joelle.where is ivy? joelle said vann go ..then ivy also go...at that time i was like so loss.omg how on earth wth happening today?but i so surprised they can sit there nth.i expecting too much on frens.i now reaslied what I DO TREAT A FRENDS.....DO THEY TREST LIKE I DO...so sad...cant said much coz it my fault causing all this due to the past...